Ngehora lesibili lobusuku, ngimi ekhishini elinamavama odongeni, ngaluluka i-skillet elandelayo - akazange angenele isitsha sokugeza. Endlini, ukuthula nokuthula, isiphakamiso esinokuthula kuphela izingane ezincane ezintathu noyise womndeni. Futhi ekhanda lami ngokungaphezi, nakancane: Emaphethelweni futhi kubeka inothi lokugada, i-monologue yayisiphonswa kuyo.
"Angicabangi impilo yami nakancane ... Ukuthi ngangikhathele kanjani ... Ngidinga usizo kakhulu, kepha akekho oza ... Kungakanani ongasebenzisa khona ... Lezi zimbiza zihleli kimi esibindini ... ukuthi angizange ngenze iphutha elingalungile ?.. ngifuna ukwenza into oyithandayo, enze okuthile okungabonakala futhi ngathola kanjani konke. .. "
I-VAPPER enobuthi kusuka ekunganekanelisekile nasekudumeni, ekuphelweni yithemba futhi ukuphelelwa yithemba ku-Slow Feam, kufakwe umhawu obukhali emikhakheni yobungcweti abanempumelelo, i-nanny, izingubo, izinkomba, abalandeli, abalandeli, ukuhamba, ukuhamba, ukuhamba, ukuphumelela.
Ingxenye yami ayizange ilahlekelwe izinsalela zomqondo ojwayelekile futhi yabukwa ngokumangala kwalesi sigameko se-hellish kusuka ohlangothini. Ngazibuza: "Kuyini ngawe? Yini iphuzu kulezi zibalo? Zithathe ngesandla bese uyeka ukukhala, ubuthi! " Ukungasho ukuthi lezi zikhalazo zisizile kakhulu - mina uqobo ngangisobala ukuthi ngithanda ithoni kwababi, ngishiya umsizi omkhulu.
Isimo sasihlukunyezwa ngempela. Ngangingamahora angama-24 ngosuku ezinganeni. Ngenkathi amadodakazi aneminyaka engu-3 neminyaka emihlanu esesisesikoleni, ngalijabulisa indodana eneminyaka eminye, sabe sesihamba sayobathatha ndawonye ngemuva kwezifundo, bese kuqala "i-rubilovo" yangempela.
Angisiye umuntu wesifazane owenziwe ekhaya kanye ne-anisurator enhle kakhulu, kanjalo nenhlangano yokuzilibazisa yezingane, ngaphandle kwemibuthano nezigaba, ngenza into embi. Ukulwa okungenakugwenywa futhi ukungafani nokuhlukaniswa phakathi kwezingane kungiqedela ngokomzwelo, futhi isidingo sokuthi "sikhonze" kwimodi yokungamilo: Letha-inkunzi-paye-ususa-Perce-Perse-Dellen-Perse-Dellen-Perce-Delecces, amabutho ngokuphelele ngaphandle kwamabutho.
Ngizoba yintokozo enkulu kakhulu ukuba yazibalekela umsebenzi othile othokozisayo ukufona nokuthanda uNanny: "Zinjani izingane?". Kepha kuze kube manje le ndlela ayizange icatshangwe nhlobo.
Ngaphezu kwalokho, amaholide kaKhisimusi aqala ukubhekana, nalokhu (Acchtung! Akhtung!) Cishe amasonto amathathu ngaphandle kwesikole. Futhi asiphinde sihambe noma kuphi, umyeni uyaqhubeka nokusebenza, ngakho-ke, kuzofanela afike nokuzijabulisa futhi ahlelele ukuzilibazisa kimi, ngaphandle kokusuka ehhovisi lebhokisi.
Ebaleni lokudlala - oh, lezi zingosi zizondwa yimi zislayidi nokushintshana! - I-physigny yami ethambile yabona omunye umama wesithathu esikoleni sethu.
- Unjani?
- Nuuu, figov, - Ngiphendula ngemayini ye-acid. - Ngicabanga ngeholidi elizayo ... angisinde nje kuleli sonto.
- Futhi uyazi, benginokufanayo. Futhi ngangizitshela ukuthi akukho okukhona. Ayikwakhiwa nhlobo: Akuyona into elula kusuka ekulevelweni kwangaphakathi, okuthe xaxa kukho konke lokhu.
Futhi waqala ukungitshela ngencwadi edumile ethi "Mindfullness" (ekuhumusheni kweRussia "(ababhali bakaMark Williams noDenny Pennim), mayelana nama-Seminar anabafundi bakwaJohn Keho, avakashela eSouth Africa, mayelana nokushintsha lokho kwenzeka empilweni yakhe isikhathi esifushane.
Futhi angazi ukuthi kungani, kodwa wonke amagama akhe angena ngqo emgomweni - kungabonakala, indawo yahambisana, isikhathi nesimo sami. Okungenani, kwakuhluke kakhulu ezingeni elijwayelekile "Kudingeka uhlapheke, maduze izingane zizokhula," "Ucabangani lapho ngizala abathathu?", "Uthanda" Jabula "eduze.
Ngakhumbula kungazelelwe kulezo zikhathi lapho bekusesimweni esifanayo, kujaha umsebenzi. "Ngikhathele kangakanani ... bengikade ngiphuthelwe impilo yami yonke ngiyosebenza ehhovisi kuMalume ... Angisoze ngathola umndeni ..." Ngiphinde ngazama ukuthola indlela yokuphuma, Kudlule "impilo yonke" kusuka ku-crust kuya ku-crust futhi wake wabheka ifilimu le-esoteric ngokuphelele "imfihlo" (umama, enengqondo evela kumuntu oseNtabeni). Ngendlela, kwasiza: iminyaka eyisikhombisa ubudala kukhona umndeni, futhi yini enye!
Ngokuvamile, kuvela, icala alikho nakancane. Ukuze ube noma ungajabuli futhi waneliseke ngempilo nje kuphela. Ngaphakathi kimi kube sengathi ukukhanya kwakhanya, futhi ngaleso sikhathi nginqume: akusekho ukukhala. Ngeke ngikhononde ngempilo noma abanye. Ngizophazamisa noma yiliphi i-bitland monologue emshweni wokuqala. Ngizosesha futhi ngigxile kokuhle kuphela, ngamandla ami onke.
Ngeke ngithi bekunjalo. Kwafuna ukuzithiba okukhulu. Ngakhathazeka ukuthi ngeke ngiphumelele: Ukulandelana kokubulawa kwezinqumo okuthathiwe akuyona ihhashi lami nhlobo. Kepha isimangaliso esithile saphumelela.
Empeleni, imithetho yomdlalo ibilula: ukweqa yonke into engemihle ngokwayo, gxila kuphela kokuhle. Nsuku zonke ngiyabonga: uzungeze, impilo. Futhi kaninginingi.
Bese kuqala ushintsho. Babecace kakhulu ukuthi bekungenakwenzeka ukuthi ungamangali. Amaholide ethu kaKhisimusi agcwala futhi afudumele, futhi kwakungekho umuzwa onjalo wokukhathala kusuka ekuhlaleni unomphela nezingane. Umyeni uyabubula ngokukhululekile futhi ejabule, ngoba ngayeka ukuyilayisha ngento engemihle. Kakade ekuqaleni kukaJanuwari, kwaba nethuba lokunikeza ingane engadini amahora amane ngosuku. Amahora amane wenkululeko - kubaluleke kakhulu!
Ngaphezu kwalokho okunye. Ngokuphazima kweso, kwaba nokwenzeka ekuzibandakanyeni kwe-hobby okuthandayo - umculo, kwaba yithonya langempela lomoya omusha, wanginikeza amandla okudala, ngokushesha okwaba yinto ebonakalayo. Ekugcineni ngabhala izindaba zezingane ezaziphika isikhathi esingaphezu konyaka ekhanda lami. Nginqume ukubuyela emsebenzini wentatheli kanye nomhleli - kanti iziphakamiso zomsebenzi zaqala ukuthola ngokuphelele ndawo. Ngakho-ke ngabuyiselwa kimi ingxenye ebalulekile yempilo yami, ngangingasekho u-100% odonswa ngumndeni nezingane.
Angiyena nochwepheshe ekucabangeni okuhle. Futhi kimi, kunjalo, ukuphula futhi lusizi kusenzeka. Kepha kukodwa ngiqinisekile impela. Lapho kubi, lapho kudabukisa, kunesizungu, singenathemba - singazisiza. Uma kungenzeki ukuthola usizo ngaphandle, qiniseka: wonke amandla nokuhlakanipha kungaphakathi kwethu, udinga nje ukubheka umphefumulo wakho.
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