Ukuze afunde omagazini abanabezali bengane, futhi kungathi nje izingane ezincane nentsha nentsha kubafihla okuthile kubazali bazo, ngoba besaba ukujeziswa.
Eqinisweni, ngaphandle kwezijeziso, futhi izingane ezinde ezinde zinezimfihlo ezingeke zihlanganyele nabazali bazo. Futhi sabelana nathi.
Kaningi angizange ngibika inombolo yangempela kamama wezilwane zakho.
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Angisho ukuthi nginesikweletu sekhadi lesikweletu.***
Umama wami namanje akazi ukuthi ngileleni nowesifazane. Futhi angicabangi ukuthi ngizomtshela kanye.
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Umama akazi lutho ngezilingo zami.***
Abazali abaliboni isibalo sabathandi bami. Nokuthi inoveli yami manje umyeni wangaphambili waqala ngocansi.
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Angishongo ukuthi ngisebudlelwaneni nowesifazane engabhema ugwayi. Umama wesibili watholakala ngengozi.***
Ukuthi i-hitchhiking yonke i-European Russia kumfundi. Umama nobaba bezwa le nguqulo esasiyiya kumshini wokubhala.
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Ngalokho engiya ku-psychotherapy. Ngenxa yakhe.***
Ngigcina imfihlo ukuthi ngabhala incwadi ephathelene nomndeni wethu. Kuyini, kufakwe encwadini, noma ngabe uyiqhawe elihle lapho?
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Ngisabiza umama amanani amancane okuthenga, ngoba ubhekene nokuphila kanjani - ukusinda. Yize yena wangifundisa, siphila kanye, ungasonta ngemali, futhi into emnandi (evame kakhulu engadingeki) ngeke iwe kabanzi.***
Ukuthi ngolunye usuku ngangicishe ngithathwe e-detox.
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Angitsheli ukuthi yini etholwe okwesibili ephakeme.***
Kuze kube yilapho okwedlule kungazange ngitshele ukuthi ngenza umsebenzi futhi ngithole idiploma yesazi sezengqondo. Iminyaka engama-20 ifihla ukuthi ngiyabhema. Yebo, ngokujwayelekile, abazi ngami cishe noma yini.
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Fihla kubazali bami ukuthi umfana engihlangane naye eminyakeni emi-2 edlule, ngakho-ke kwenzeka ukuthi ngalo lolo suku wamholela ekuhlangane nabo ebusuku ukuze bavakashele ukuthi ngizovakashela (bekunguhambo lwabazongilibangile, Mina cishe iminyaka eyi-10, angikhombisi muntu), muva nje ngithole ukuboshwa okungapheli kokubulala nge-cannibalism.***
Eminyakeni engu-23 edlule ngoMeyi 1 kwaba khona isivunguvungu seqhwa. Abazali babesekotishi, ngisekhaya. Ngenxa yesimo sezulu, angizange ngihambe ngezinyawo nomuntu onosana, kodwa wanquma ukuyibeka endaweni yokuhamba nge-balcony, umoya wokuphefumula. Ukugcwala komoya kubhidlize i-vase ngamagatsha ezimbambo futhi kwaphula ipuleti elihle elivela enkonzweni, esizamazama kuphela umama: Ephreli 29, ubaba wayeyisikhumbuzo. Ngiyethemba ukuphefumula kwami kwahlupheka kakhulu (wavela kuphela). Ngokumangazayo, wabamba kahle futhi kahle. Futhi eminyakeni eyi-15 kuphela, ngemuva kokudla okuningana, umthungo wabonakala. Bengivakashela abazali bami nje. Umama wamangala - le puleti yaqhekeka kanjani, futhi nini? Ngikhulumile. Umama akazange akholwe isikhathi eside, athi, ngifaka insipho le nsizakalo izikhathi eziyikhulu, ngiyobona. Kepha imininingwane yaqiniseka.
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Angisho ukuthi ngikhokhela kangakanani amakilasi we-Vocal. Angikashokali ukuthi ngihambe kanjani nabangane nolwandle futhi lapho ngashiswa yilanga futhi ngageza ngaphandle kwakho konke (kahle, impilo yomuntu siqu yalokhu yanamathiselwa ngobudlova, njengoba ngaphandle kwawo). Futhi ukuthi isithombe sakhe esinqunu ngezandla zakhe sithumele kubhulogi elidumile. Konke kungenacala kakhulu, kepha umama uyazikhethela.
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Angitsheli ukuthi iminyaka emihlanu yaya e-psychotheratist.***
Isikhathi eside kakhulu, kuze kube okwesikhombisa, kubonakala sengathi inyanga ayizange ilandise ngokukhulelwa - akekho nowokuqala noma wesibili.
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Angazi ukuthi ngenzeni isisu.
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