Umlingisi kanye nomlobi we-Carrie Fisher ekwazini kwethu ikakhulukazi futhi, cishe, kuphela umlotho wenkosazana odumile esuka eSaga mayelana nezimpi zezinkanyezi. Kepha ezweni lakubo, wayaziwa ngomuzwa wokuhlekisa, ngoba amandla okukhuluma ngokubhala nangamazwi, ngezincwadi zawo kanye nomsebenzi wezimo - Cha, wayengeyena umfanekiso we-screen, umhleli wemibhalo kuphela.
Wayebuye futhi - ingane yenkanyezi yamashumi amahlanu. Okunye kungumlutha wotshwala nowokudla izidakamizwa. Ngisho - owayengumlutha wezidakamizwa notshwala owayekade. Okuningi - Owesifazane ohlushwa yi-Bipolar Disectiforder futhi akanamahloni ukukhanyisela abantu futhi akhiphe izinganekwane kulokhu kugula. Futhi kothile, kungenzeka ukuthi uCarrie nje, intombazane nowesifazane abamomotheka obukhazimula ngalezo zikhathi, lapho ukucindezeleka kungamenzi ubuso bakhe.
Siqoqe izingcaphuno ezingama-26 uCarrie Fisher, ozosisiza ukuba sikufunde emaqenjini amasha.
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Ngicabanga ngomzimba wami njengomphumela omubi wengqondo yami. Kubukeka njengokucabanga, okwake kwavela futhi kwadalwa. Hawu! O, cha! I-Metalized! Bheka nje. Manje kufanele uthenge izingubo nokunye njalo.***
Angifuni impilo ilingise ubuciko. Ngifuna impilo ngibe ubuciko.
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Ngiyagula ngokomqondo. Ngiyakusho. Anginamahloni. Ngasinda lapho futhi ngisakhathazeka, kepha hhayi kuphela ukungadeleli. Ngcono kunawe.***
Ukucasulwa ukuthi ungaphuza kanjani ubuthi bese ulinda omunye umuntu.
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Kwesinye isikhathi ngicabanga ukuthi ngidinga umfana omubi, engizokwenza okuhle. Noma umfana omuhle odonswa kabi nami kancane. Kepha noma bakhulu kakhulu, noma bahlale bembi kakhulu.***
Amafilimu engiwathandayo yilawo lapho amabinzana angezwe yimi, futhi ngiyayithanda le mishwana. Ngithanda ukubazwa.
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Ngiyaphila, nginenkinga yokuphefumula. Ngithatha imishanguzo eyisikhombisa, kathathu ngosuku. Kuhlala kungikhumbuza ukugula kwami. Angikwazi nje ukuthatha kusuka kulolu suku kuye ngosuku. Indlela yokuphila nesifo sikashukela.***
Ngangihlala ngibhala. Ngabhala ngivela eminyakeni eyishumi nambili. Ngalezo zinsuku kwakuwukwelashwa kwami. Ngabhala noma yini ukuyidlulisela imizwa yami ephepheni.
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Ngaba nento enjalo, ngathandana namazwi, ngifunda izincwadi futhi ngigcizelele imigqa engiyithandayo, namazwi angayazi.***
Kwesinye isikhathi ungathola iPharadesi kuphela ebuya kancane esihogweni.
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Ngaya kudokotela ngathi ngizwa kahle i-acid engiyisibani emhlabeni wamabhu. Ngakho-ke isigaba se-main sibukeka.***
Ngidinga ukuyeka ukuyahlanya ngabantu futhi ngithandane nesihlalo. Izihlalo zinakho konke abantu abangakunikeza, ngisho nokuncane kakhulu ukuthi ngokusobala ngidinga. Ukuphendula okungaphansi kwemizwelo, ukushisa okuncane, ukwesekwa okuncane, ukubekezela okuncane nokuphendula okuncane. Okuncane okumnandi ngokwengeziwe. Izihlalo - okudingayo. Kufanele ngigcwalise inhliziyo yami ngemizwa yefenisha.
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Ukwesaba, kepha yenza. Isenzo lokho kubalulekile. Awudingi ukulinda uze uzethembe. Vene wenze, ukuzethemba kancane kancane kuzofika.***
Ngicabanga ukuthi lokho ukuvuthwa kuyimpendulo ye-stoic ekwakhekeni kweqiniso.
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Uyazi ukuthi kunezifo ezinezimpawu ezisobala kuwe? Kubukeka njengokushisa, isisu esidabukisayo, amakhaza nezinye izinto.Endabeni ye-Psychosis ecindezelekile ye-Manic, lokhu kungubudlelwano obungaqondakali ngokobulili, ukusetshenziswa kwemali okuphezulu nokusebenzisa kabi izinto - nayo yonke le misindo yami, kumahemuhemu ami, njengempelasonto enhle eLas Vegas!
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Uma i-chatter yayingu-Aerobics, ngizoba ngumuntu oqiniswa kakhulu emhlabeni.
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Ngiyabonga. Futhi lokhu kuyingxenye yomsebenzi wami. INkosi yangithuma emhlabeni ukuze ngalala abantu abaningi.
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Yini ongayisho lapho izigidi zonodoli bepulasitiki zithengiswa nsuku zonke, futhi inani elifanayo labafana bashaya indlwabu njalo ebusuku kuzo, kunesibopho nje ukwenza okuthile okumangazayo nge-psyche yakho.***
Okhulile uba, ubona lula ama-rogues. Futhi, ngicabanga ukuthi akumnandi kakhulu kubo.
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Ihlaya elihle lingumcimbi omubi.***
Lapho uba yinkanyezi "Star Wars," kuba nzima ukuhamba ngezinsuku, ngoba angifuni muntu ukuthi athi: "Ngithole i-Princess Leu."
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Ukukhishwa kwami kuyindlela yokubhekana nokungenela kwami.***
Ngahamba nami ngaphandle kokuthambisa okukhethekile. Angincomi ukwenza kanjalo.
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Uma ulindele okuthile ngejubane eliphezulu, ukulinda kubukeka ngathi abanye.***
Kwesinye isikhathi ngiba nokungcola ekhanda lami, futhi kunohlobo oluthile lwentokozo ukumbonisa ngamazwi. Vele, lokhu akuyona into oyiphatha ngayo, ukuyiqopha, ukulungisa amagama kungaba yinto enamandla kakhulu.
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Impilo iyihlaya elinesihluku, elibi, futhi ngiyintambo yakamuva lapho kungukuwohlowa khona lonke.
I-athikili elungiselelwe uLilith Mazikina
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