Sicabange ukuthi izikhalazo ngothando olungaphezulu kothando lwabesifazane - amantombazane amaningi. Kepha i-Old-Prettaraya, ephuma ePhene Magazine "Exteroch", i-athikili kaDenis Gorleov iphendula ezinhlizweni zethu, kube sengathi siyibhalele, kuphela phansi kwehlukile. Futhi izinkinga ziyefana: "Labo uK Kutali, kuphela labo abashadayo, futhi bashaya labo ababefezile."
Akukho ukuhlaselwa okugcwele kothando lobuzali. Kwangempela. Impumputhe. Manic.
Shayela ekhaya-and-i-i-la. Izinkinga eziningi zishaywa ngawodwana ngaphandle, futhi lokhu kuphela okulimazayo kusuka ngaphakathi nsuku zonke, eminyakeni ephelele. Ngisho ne-Gnusi, njengejele, isamba nebutho, ukuguqula ubunikazi akusekho kunesidingo sansuku zonke sokugqoka isikhafu. Udla izaqathe. Yidla i-apula. I-Seagull ayifuni?
Ngemuva kwehora sizodla. Engxenyeni yehora sizodla isidlo sasemini. Ngemuva kwemizuzu engu-15 sizodla. Uyaphi, izandla zami. Hhayi nje sekwephuze kakhulu. Futhi misha akuyona wena? Washiya malini? Wagqoka isigqoko? Washada? Unjalo ngenxa yalokhu kuphela? Akayifanele, intombazane yesifundazwe eyisiwula. Kungani ungikhukhule ngaso sonke isikhathi? Ngikuchitha. Ngizohlangana nawe. Isikhathi sokuba ulale. Kuyabanda ngaphandle. Yenza lokhu okulandelayo. Izindlebe zokukhetha. Ungayiphrinti, ngiyasaba. Ungaphuzi amanzi avundwayo, ungaphuzi amanzi avundwayo, ungaphuzi amanzi avundwayo.
I-Macade yakho igqokwa ikota yashelela, ikufuna. Ngiyabonga, ngacabanga, nginika ugwayi. "Into esemqoka ukuvumelana nakho konke, wafundisa umngani wakhe engozini. Izindandatho kusihlwa esiteshini: hlangana. Swenka. Iya ehholo, bathi: Ngeke uhambe noma kuphi, sekwephuzile. Yebo, ngeke ngiye noma kuphi. Khulisa. Hamba. Futhi, siyagqoka futhi sishiya ngokushesha, singanaki ukukhala ezitebhisini. "
UnguNeurasthenik, mngani wami. I-Boxer ne-Neurasthenik. Inhlanganisela yasendle. Iminyaka emithathu ihlala eJalimane ngaphandle kwabazali, nomndeni wakhe, futhi namanje neeurasthenik. Uthanda "Ababulali Besifazane." Ngiyakuqonda. Abantu abakabonanga. Zilula futhi ziyinto ebalulekile.
Lapho bethi umkhulu wakho uqobo ugula kakhulu ngengqondo, ngoba imizuzu emihlanu ngemuva kocingo lwendodakazi egibele i-sorokaleneny, ngaphakathi emaminithi angenayo, bayalwa, bathi lapho unezingane zakho , khona-ke uzoqonda. Bayiziwula nje ezijabulisayo. Kubo, eminyakeni engamashumi amane kamuva ukubhema ukubhema, akukaze kube nobaba oneminyaka engama-65 futhi akazange athathe ekhaya, ngoba kwase kudlule isikhathi.
Bahleka nathi bahleka futhi banikele, njengendlela yokugcina, beshintshanisa ifulethi. Azijwayelekile ukuthi umuntu obone uthando lwabazali olwazisa khona abonanga ukushintshanisa nefulethi. Kunqatshelwe, ukuze akwazi ukukhokha okungenani yena. Uyazi ukuthi akukho lutho. Izinqumo. Thatha udumo. Ukuhlala ndawonye. Kufanelekile. Yeka Ukugcina ibanga. Nikeza ebusweni. Thenga. Ukulungisa. Phendula. Ngokwethusa phambi komhlaba, uyakuzonda abantu abanamandla kakhulu kunalokho abakufanele.
Uthando lwangaphandle ngaye umuthi, ahlala athola khona mahhala futhi enempilo. Ukuncika kwe-narcotic kuyaqhubeka, uthando lukamama oluningi seluvele lushonile, ama-hallucinogen abukhali adingeka, futhi awabanikanga.
Futhi akazi ukuthi angamthanda kanjani, ngoba uthando uhlala udinga ibanga ngaso sonke isikhathi, futhi waqabulana kusukela ebuntwaneni, futhi angikajwayele ukunikela, kodwa futhi uyazi ukuthi umthwalo wemvelo wemvelo, futhi uzama kanjani Hlikihla umuduzo
Ukuqala ukuphonsa phakathi "Ngikhathazeke" futhi "nginguNkulunkulu", izinhlansi ezibuhlungu, ukuzicabangela, ukuzibheka ohlangothini olungeke kodwa luzenze kodwa Lapho usendaweni yokudlela ebizayo, zicabanga ngamehlo angajwayelekile, ngokushesha uqala ukuthuthumela isandla, futhi konke kuvela kusuka kuFork.
Umntwana othandekayo othandekayo uyinkosana yomqhele, owadedela ngomuntu ukuze aphile ngemuva kokuba ubaba anqume ikhanda lakhe. Kungcono kusetshenziswe ukungavumeli. Ukuqeda okungcono ngaso leso sikhathi. Inhlanganisela yomashiqela kanye nosana emphefumlweni owodwa ngokuthembekile kuvimbela umuntu ebuntwini. Ngaphezu kwalokho usizo lukamama akusadingeki: Isizungu sisolwa futhi siphanga isikhulu sodwa; Usizi seluvele lulayishelwe, uyakwazi ukukhiqiza kabusha ngokwakhe.
Kodwa-ke, uma umama engakafiki, uzohlala ethola isikhathi sokushayela ucingo acele ukuthi ahoxile nanamuhla nokuthintaphi izolo. Sekuyisikhathi eside isishayo sezizwe zonke. Umngane owabuya kwa-Israyeli watshelwa ukuthi sonke isizukulwane sezingane ezingapheli ezingabizi ezidlulayo nge-pogrom kanye nenkundla yokuphumula kwandisiwe lapho. Izingane ezingakaze zibe ngabantu abadala, ngoba zizobekwa phansi ngokuguga baphanga, futhi abakuvumeli ukuphuma, ngoba kukhona izinja, izimoto nezigebengu.
Ngakho-ke umhlaba uhlukaniswe ngezibonakaliso ezimbili. Ngakolunye uhlangothi, ama-slugs anesizungu anesizungu anomusa ngokuthambekela kokuzibulala aphila, kuya ekugugeni okudala kuzama ukubonakala kupholile. Kwamanye amaphaphu, amaholide, wonke ama-swiveles akho owathandayo, aze afike kumdala ngemali nezinduku. Zilungile.
Ngesikhathi sokuthomba kwabo, abazali babesebenza emsebenzini, omunye nomunye, kodwa hhayi uthando lukaChadam. Othile uBaba-umqondisi oneminyaka engu-16 washiya efulethini ngemali iminyaka emibili wahamba nonina kuloluhambo.
Othile uBaba-Acadomian ngonyaka oneminyaka eyi-16 wathi: "Qhubeka ngokwakho. Nayi igumbi lakho nesidlo sasekuseni ekhaya, futhi okunye akusilo ibhizinisi lethu. " Omunye akanaye uBaba nonke, futhi umama futhi namanje bebhala. "Ngakho-ke, lezi yizingane ezifanele, zingadedelwa, hhayi ukuthi", zisho ngokuthula noma yimuphi umama ochwepheshe nokuhlanya. Lezi akuzona izingane ezingalungile zingabazali abalungile.
Lapho eneminyaka engu-16, ungaphonsa eyodwa futhi udinga noma yimuphi umuntu ngaphandle kwe-verge encwadini ethi "isiphetho sesigubhu", esithengisa i-burgeant, bese kuthi izinhloli ziyofufula.
Emphakathini ongaphelele, isikhulu sihlala sisenqabeni esingathandeki, usana lwenyuvesi, u-Led Sawyer Heclberry Finn. Enye impilo idlula ezikhalazo namaphupho, phakathi kwabanye eqanjiwe nasekuhambeni. Abanye bagibela abazali bakhononde ngokuba khona, enye imfihlo evela kumfazi ukuboleka enye uLalka, ujabule futhi ebonga. Ezinye izinyanga zicabanga ukuthi kuzodingeka ukugeza phansi, enye ingxenye ngosuku lokuzivocavoca okusha.
Abanye abathulayo ngokuqinile efulethini labo, abanye bashintsha izinkinobho ezinjengamagilavu, ukudubula, ukushada kanye nezivakashi ezivela kubangani. Ukubhaliswa Kwamasosha kanye Nezincwadi Zokubhalisa akukaze zibathole, futhi uma zitholakala, zikhubeke ngokuzethemba futhi zisheshe zenziwe ngu-OtMaz, futhi uma zibamba kalula emfihlakalo, lapho kufakwa khona I-Orchestra, futhi ngaphandle kokuvikelwa, kusukela ebuntwaneni, ejwayele ukunquma izinkinga. Empini "uwoyela kaphethiloli" wakhonzwa kusukela ebuntwaneni esongelwe yi-chad. Emuva baza ne-meroboyaznie ephindwe kabili, ukuvalwa kanye nokuzonda ubuntu. URodin uhlole i-grey whiskey kubo bese uncoma ngokushesha ukuhunyushwa.
Lokhu kungukuthula okuyisithulu, okuyisithulu, okwenziwe ngomshini. Ukuze ingane ibe nempilo, idakiwe embhedeni phakathi kwebanga lesine nangemva konyaka omusha futhi amahora amathathu anelisekile ngama-sobs emcameni. Ukuze indodakazi yakhe yaxoshwa ngokushesha ingqondo futhi yatshelwa, watshelwa ukuthi, Hlobo luni lwemvelo oluphila oluphilayo, ngosuku lokuzalwa kwakhe, nge-champagne ezandleni zakhe, ngesimo sethoyizi.
Kunamathele, njenge-lollipop, ngentshiseko, njengehlanza lezimbali, izithulu, njengonogada ngenkani, abazali ngenkani futhi bafuna ukubona labo abashadile, futhi bashaya labo ababehamba nabo. Bavikela ilungelo labo lokuthanda, kanti abanesibindi kakhulu ekucabangeni kwezingane angenzeki ukuzivikela. Lokhu kumele ngiziqhenye ngendodakazi yami, futhi uhlala isiwula namashumi amabili nanhlanu kuphila ngomugqa. Ngifuna kwenze ukuthi indodana igubha usuku lokuzalwa lwendlu nami, nokuthi lifunani akunandaba.
Ngikhathazekile lapho ungekho ekhaya, ngakho-ke ufe, futhi ube yishumi. Futhi iqiniso lokuthi wena, ake ucabange, wasisebenzisa isithwathwa walala eqhweni kaningi futhi hhayi ayishumi, angikubonanga, angikubonanga inhliziyo yami, kodwa angizange ngilibuze inhliziyo yami, kepha angizange ngikulimaze, kepha angizange ngikulimaze inhliziyo yami, kepha angizange ngikulimaze, kepha angizange ngikulimaze inhliziyo yami, kepha angizange ngikulimaze inhliziyo yami, kepha angizange ngilimaze inhliziyo yami, kepha angizange ngikulimaze inhliziyo yami, kepha angizange ngikulimaze inhliziyo yami, kepha angizange ngikulimaze, kepha angizange ngikulimaze inhliziyo yami, kepha angizange ngikulimaze inhliziyo yami, kepha angizange ngikulimaze inhliziyo yami, kepha angizange ngikulimaze inhliziyo yami, kepha angikubonanga kulindeleke ukuthi ihambe. Omunye ubaba ophilayo, umalume ofanele kakhulu, washo lapho umama: "Uma ungakaze ushade, ubaba wakho uzokugijima, uxolo, ushaya amaphiko futhi angajabula."
Ngokuvamile, ngiyaqonda ukuthi kungani uZhenya Lukashin evela "ekungangeni kahle kwesiphetho" kuya kwamashumi amathathu nesithupha kwakungekho mndeni. Wayenomama. Lokho kukhulu kakhulu. Umhlaba.
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