Ayidli kwanto - iqulathe eli qela lisidenge "Ana", bayadumisa apho, njengoko bengazange batye nantoni na namhlanje. Iziselo, ukutshaya, ukufunga i-mat, zonke izandla zimbethe, akukho ngqiqweni. Ndilale ngoontanga abahamba isikolo, kwaye bekuya kudibana nohlobo oluthile lwenkwenkwe, balala, baya kulwa naye, baxabane naye, baxabana. Ukukhwela oololiwe, i-zaining ibizwa ngokuba yiyo. Sika izandla njengekhoboka leziyobisi, isidenge sikaTantile, ndingathanda - kwakudala, imithambo inqunyulwe. Lazo lonke ixesha liza nezifo kwaye lizisele iipilisi ezifihlakeleyo.
Ezandleni zalwa. Uphawu olubi. Akucaci ukuba ngubani. Bafundise bafunda. Ukugxothwa. Ukugxothwa.
Iseti eqhelekileyo yezikhalazo. Siyazi uninzi lwabazali abangakwaSutho-Tata noMama. Akukho nto ingenzi nto, iminyaka nje ifana nale. Abazali - Abafeli. Abazali bamba izinto. Abayi ndawo ukusuka kwi-monster encinci ekhayeni labo. Ngakumbi ukuba akamncinci sele encinci, unokufunyanwa kwi-balcony kunye neentsuku ezimbini nge-booties.
Ngamanye amaxesha abantu bazalwe kwii-psychopapathis. Ingenamphefumlo, ngovelwano lwe-zero. Esi sisibakala sonyango.
Iinqobo zokuziphatha zoontanga kunye nokwamkelwa kwabo kumntwana okwishumi elivisayo kubaluleke kakhulu. Kwaye ukuba badibana nofakelo lwasekhaya, umntwana okwishumi elivisayo unokungena kwimfazwe nosapho. Le ikwayinyani.
Ngamaxesha obutsha bethu kunye nobuntwana kwiimagazini zabazali, izikhalazo zabakwishumi elivisayo zabonakaliswa: "Umama ufumana. Utata ngalo lonke ixesha lokufunda. Ndidiniwe, musa ukunika ubomi obufunayo. " "Njengoko ndifuna" kwakuthetha, kunjalo, ukuziphatha okubi. Okanye isidenge nje. Oku koyikeka xa umntwana okwishumi elivisayo ephethe isidenge. Akwamkelekanga. Okanye ivumelekile. Le yayiphikisana.
Ngoku abakwishumi elivisayo banamathuba amaninzi okuthetha ngumntu wokuqala. Ngokungathi le tshintsho. Ngokungathi kukho umntu onokubavayo. "Ukuvala" kunye namaqela anjengobuninzi bafumaneka kwiinethiwekhi zentlalo.
Ubetha. Ubetha. Andibaboni. Ndiphupha ukuba ndibulala umama, ndikhulu? Andifuni kuphila, ndingumkhulu. Akukho mntu uyandithanda. Akukho mntu uthetha nam. Ndiyi-freak freak freak, i-freak enjalo abazali bam bandithiyile kwaye babetha.
Ndingu-fucking wesibini, kwaye andiyithandi.
Kwaye ndiyasela ndiyimfihlo, phantse yonke imihla, ishumi elinesihlanu, ndilinxila. Ndikhwela ngoololiwe, kuba ke buyinkqangaza ukufa, ngokungathi kukho indlela yokuphila. Kwi "Ana" ndithande, kwaye akukho namnye umntu ongamthandiyo naphi na. Ndilala nendoda endala, kuba uyandithanda. Utata uza kundibulala ukuba ndifumanise ukuba ndithandane nentombazana. Andiyifuni. Andiyifuni. Andimdingi. Kutheni bendinika?
Ndifuna nje ukuba ndingandithandi umntu, yintoni ephosakeleyo ngam ...
Njengoko uyazi, abantwana abaqondi nantoni na kobu bomi. Ngakumbi isibonelelo sabo.
Xa sithetha ngotywala kunye nokuphazamiseka kokutya kwabantu abadala, sisebenzisa eli gama - "ukuziphatha zenzakalisa." Kutheni le nto ifana nantoni abantu '- luphawu nje lokukhuthaza?
Ngoba kutheni?
Kuba uninzi lwabantwana bazi ngokugqibeleleyo ngeengozi zotywala. Uninzi lwenza ukuba kukhetho oluqondayo ukuze uqhubeke nokusetyenziswa okulinganiselweyo kakhulu. Kungenxa yokuba uninzi lwabantwana abaziphatha ubomi bezesondo, bayazi ukuba bayenza into engalunganga. Bamalunga nobomi obungenasini ngesondo njengezinto ezimbi ziva rhoqo kwaye kuyo yonke indawo ... ayisiyiyo into engaziphetheyo kwaye itshabalalisa, ingakumbi yentombazana.
Intsomi kunye nokungakhathali okukhuthaza kuphela kwezenzo zabantu abadala. Abantwana abaneminyaka emithathu banazo izinto zokukhuthaza. Ulutsha-ngakumbi.
Phola, umzekelo. Ungasela okanye ukutshaye ukuba ube phakathi kweyakho. Ngale ngcebiso, abazali bayavumelana rhoqo.
Ukwenza, umzekelo. Ngale ngxaki, bayavumelana rhoqo, kodwa balibale ukuqhubeka. Emva kwayo yonke loo nto, ibibizwa ngokuba yiyo leyo, yabizwa ngokuba yiyo loo nto. Yenzeka kanye loo nto. Nditsalele umnxeba ukwenza umntu ozikhuphayo. I-Oblorma yenza umntu okubuhlungu. Yayibizwa ukuba yenze umntu ondoyikisa, ngubani olinde kakhulu - umzekelo, ukhuseleko, kuba alusakwazi ukulinda nabani na - kwaye akalindelanga.
Ukutsala umdla. Kodwa ukuba inomdla-kuthetha ukuba bayayifuna, inyanzelekile ukuba ilungele ukunyamezela iintlungu, yenza into eyoyikisayo okanye engathandekiyo? Buyintoni na ububi bokudibana kwaye banikezele? Ngaba uqhelane ne-blackmail? Ukuba ingqwalaselo ayinakufunyanwa ngenye indlela-ewe, kunjalo.
Ukuziphatha kakuhle kwishumi elivisayo kunesizathu esinye kuphela sinesizathu esingaphezulu kwabantu abadala. Ingqalelo yaba bantu babaluleke kakhulu ehlabathini - abazali.
Oko kukuthi, banokuba neentlobano zesini, kuba kuyimali yokwaneliseka kwengukumkani enamacala, ukuze ufumane amagama anothando kwaye nangona kwakuza kubakho uthando. Njengabantu abadala.
Banokuchaphazela umonakalo kwaye bashiye izidlo, ngaphandle komlinganiso wokusela nokutshaya, kuba kufuneka batshintshelwe kwi-dismoning kunye nomzimba wabo, kwaye ukuba abajikelezile bahlekisa nabo kwaye babajongile. Njengabantu abadala.
Banokwenza nantoni na ebizwa ngokuba ngulowo ubabethayo okanye abathobekileyo, kuba kuyinto eqhelekileyo - ukunqwenela ukwenza okuthile kwi-tornakar. Abantu abadala bayayenza loo nto, kodwa abantu abadala banamathuba amaninzi ukwenza ubundlobongela ngqo.
Kwaye ukanti-ukanti-ukuphela kolutsha kunokwenza konke oku kuba bafuna ingqalelo, bafuna ukuba babuzwe, ukuba akunjalo ukuze bathande. Kuba abanabantu abadala. Kwaye iminyaka elishumi elinesihlanu ubudala ngamabele, njengomntu omdala, kwaye ishumi elinantathu eneempawu ezilishumi elinesixhenxe, embundwini wesininzi, bakwabonke abantwana.
Kwaye bonke abantwana babalulekile ukuba bathande umama wabo, utata wathanda utata ukuba baxabiseke kwizalamane zabo. Ukuba kuphela indlela yethu kuphela yokubonisa ukuba babalulekile kuthi - ukukhwaza ukungaziphathi kakuhle, baya kwenza iMisimemeanors. Kodwa ukuba eyona ndlela iphambili yokubonisa ukuba siyabathanda - ukubethwa, baya kubona ukubetha kuphela, kuba xa betshutshiswa - oku akukho malunga nothando. Nokuba sikhohlisiwe kube lixesha nje malunga nothando, kwaye sikholelwa.
Sele bengakholelwa kuyo.
Ewe, ngenxa yokuba thina, enyanisweni asiyiyo.
Umbhali wombhalo: Lilith mazikina
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