Amava obuqu: jonga, ndingafezekanga, kwaye ndinemihla eyoyikisayo

Inyanga entsha. Amazinyo sele ebonakala kwi-gum womntwana. Ukutshisa, ukutshayela i-tamas kunye ne-sobrellas yelanga esitratweni. Ilanga, livutha kancinci. Namhlanje sinosuku olunzima nomntwana.

Unqabile nje imini yonke xa ndithetha nosapho lonke - ndiziva kakubi, andinamandla, ndinokulitshintsha, nditsho, ndidlale. Beza, basindisa, bathabathe, badlale - emva kwexesha elincinci kunokuba bendifuna, kodwa ndinuka, ndinxunguphele, yonke into ifana kangangexesha elithile. Ndandinethamsanqa kakhulu ngalo mzuzu - wafumana nabani na ukuba acele uncedo, kwaye ndiyifumene.

Emva kokuzalwa komntwana, iinyanga ezimbalwa zokuqala andizange ndibekho umntu onokuthi, kwaye kwakunzima kakhulu. Mhlawumbi, akukho nto inzima ebomini bam ayikagqibi. Kwaye ndisaqhuba la mava, ndivale, ndizikhethela izipho ezivela kuye, ndiyazithoba izithuko. Bendihlala njalo. Ngomntwana esifubeni kwaye kunye kwigumbi lokuhlambela, esifubeni somyeni wakhe, omnye emqamelo. Emva koko, ngokuthe ngcembe, yaye yaphantsi kwaye iphantsi - ndaqala "ukujongana". Ngandlel 'ithile, ukunyuka, zinike imaski yeoksijini kuqala kuyo yonke, exhasayo. Ewe, umntwana ukhulile, kwaba lula. Ngoku inqabile, kwakanye-mbini ngenyanga. Kodwa yenzeka.

Kodwa namhlanje, namhlanje yiyo imini. Uyaphoswa lonke ixesha, ndiyakhala naye, sibi kakhulu. Zonke ezifana ngelo xesha. Andikwazi ukudlala, ukuphazamisa, ukubonakalisa izibambo-andinawo ebusuku, andinamandla. Ndiya kumgangatho, ndifumana isifuba, ndenze into oyifunayo, cela ukuba uthandane apha, kodwa ndinoxolelwe-andiqondi ukuba kungayimfuneko ukwenza, kodwa andikwazi. Ngokwasemzimbeni andikwazi, ngalo mzuzu. Emzimbeni uqhekeza "ingozi, ingozi! Ukudinwa kokuziphatha! Siphumla ngokukhawuleza! " Kwaye ndiyaphumla - iphuma njani. Ukulala kumgangatho owona mdala kakhulu, nge-t-shibtty t-shirt, ngomntwana okhethiweyo kwi-zey ye-zy. Ukulila. Imizuzu elishumi elinesihlanu. Le yimaski yeoksijini yam, leyo. Ke kuya kuba lula, ndiphakame ndenze into, ukuba uthobe umntwana. Usuku luyaqhubeka. Uncedo luza, nalo.

Ndiyakubhalela le nto ukuba umntu andizondelele. Kwaye ayisiyonto yonke into yokuba umntu athi-Wenza ntoni, jonga, ndingumama ongatshatanga onamagama amabini ananto! Kwaye abantwana eAfrika balambile konke konke! .. Ndiyazana, ndiyazi, hamba ngenene ngo, nceda.

Ndibhala le nto kuba yenzeka. Le yinto eqhelekileyo, le yinxalenye yobomi. Kwi-Instagram kunye ne-Facebook, sonke silungile, uyazi. Yonke into ihlala ilungile, abantwana babehlasela kwaye bancume, kwaye siyabhabha kwaye sihle ngokuchasene nemvelaphi yendawo emnyama. Sonke sineentsuku ezinjalo - ubunzima, ubunzima, ngamanye amaxesha azinyamezeleki.

Kwaye oku kuyinto eqhelekileyo. Kwaye Thetha ngayo - kakhulu. Ngokubanzi, ukuze baqonde iimvakalelo kwaye bathethe ngabo.

Ndinolwalamano olunzima nomama, sithandana kakhulu, kodwa rhoqo asiqondi rhoqo. Ngakumbi ngokweemvakalelo. Ekubeni ubuntwana, undikhwelise ukuba ndikhale, ukuba andibuhlungu ngokwasemzimbeni, kwaye kule meko bekuyimfuneko ukuthoba ngokungxamisekileyo, kuba iinyembezi zam bezingathandeki. Kwaye ezinye iimvakalelo ezininzi azinakusetyenziswa. Umzekelo, umsindo. Okanye usizi. Kwaye ngokungeyomfuneko, ngokutsho, uthando.

Ngoku ndakhulela kwaye ndivumele ndive yonke into. Ndiyakhala, ndihleke, ndiyakuthanda, lusizi - yimalini. Imbuyekezo.

Kodwa uyazi ukuba uninzi lwazo zonke endandixolelanisa nomama kule mbandela? .. Ufike kum xa uRick wayenenyanga enesiqingatha. Uxelele i-skype kangangokuba wayengamelana nale yeyedwa kwaye, ephosa yonke into, yeza kunceda. Wayixelela ke, emva kokuzalwa kwam, nam, ndidibana njani nendoda yakhe, ndisezityaleni ezingacacanga, ndineenduli ezingaqondakaliyo. Am, umama onamandla.

Ndandinombulelo ongazenzisiyo kuye, ngakumbi kunangaphambili.

Ke ngoku ndikubhalela, jonga, ndingafezekanga, kwaye ndinemihla eyoyikekayo. Ndiyaphila, ndinyanisekile. Kwaye uyazi ukuba yintoni enye? Yonke into inawe kwaye ilungile. Le yinto eqhelekileyo.

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