Ukufunda iimagazini ezizaliswe ngabantwana, kwaye ngokungathi ngabantwana abancinci kunye neshumi elivisayo ufihla into kubazali babo, kuba boyika ukohlwaywa.
Ngapha koko, ngaphandle kohlwayo, kwaye abantwana abadala abadala banemfihlakalo abangayi kwabelana nabazali babo. Kwaye sabelana nathi.
Ndandihlala ndingasixeleli inombolo yenyani yenyani yezilwanyana zakho.
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Anditsho ukuba ndinetyala lekhadi letyala.***
Umama wam usazi ukuba ndilele ntoni nomntu obhinqileyo. Kwaye andicingi ukuba ndiza kumxelela kube kanye.
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Umama akayazi nto malunga nezilingo zam.***
Abazali abaze baliqonde inani labathandi bam. Kwaye inoveli yam ngelo hlobo yayingumyeni waqala ngesondo.
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Khange nditsho ukuba ndibudlelwane nebhinqa enditshayayo. Umama wesibini wafumanisa ngengozi.***
I-Hitchhiking yiyonke iRussia yaseYurophu emfundi. Umama notata beva inguqulelo esiya kumchwethezi wechwetheza.
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Malunga nento endiya kwi-psychotherapy. Ngenxa yakhe.***
Ndiyigcina imfihlo endayibhala incwadi malunga nosapho lwethu. Yintoni, hlukani encwadini, nokuba uligorha elifanelekileyo apho?
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Ndisambiza umama amaxabiso amancinci okuthenga, kuba unendlela yokuphila-isinde. Nangona yena ngokwakhe wandifundisa, siphila kube kanye, ungajijeka ngemali, kwaye unomdla (uhlala ungayimfuneko) into ayiyi kuwa ngaphezulu.***
Ukuba ngenye imini ndiphantse ndathabatha kwi-detox.
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Andixeleli ukuba yintoni eyamkelayo yesibini ephezulu.***
Kude kube le yokugqibela ayizange ixelele ukuba ndenza umsebenzi kwaye ndifumane idiploma yogqirha wezengqondo. Iminyaka engama-20 yokufihla ukuba ndiyatshaya. Ewe, ngokubanzi, abazi ngam nantoni na.
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Zifihle kubazali bam ukuba inkwenkwe endiyifumene kwiminyaka emi-2 eyadlulayo, kwaye ke kwathi ngaloo mini wamvumela ukuba adibane nabazali bakhe ukuba abuyele ukuba ngubani na wokundwendwela (luhambo, kunjalo Ndineminyaka eli-10 ubudala, andibonisi mntu), kutshanje ndiye ndafumana ukuvalelwa okungapheliyo ukubulawa noCannibalism.***
Kwiminyaka engama-23 eyadlulayo ngoMeyi 1 Kwakukho i-snowsrm. Abazali babesekhaya, ndisekhaya. Ngenxa yemozulu, andizange ndihambe ndihamba nekrizo yentsana, kodwa ndagqiba kwelokuba ndiyibeke emngxunyeni kwi-balcony, umoya wokuphefumla. I-gust yomoya ibhukuqa i-vash ngamasebe eembambo kwaye yaphula ipleyiti entle kwinkonzo, esihambayo kunye noMama: ngo-Epreli 29, utata wayesisikhumbuzo. Ndinethemba lokuphefumla kwam ndagcuma i-Superchem yakhe (wabonakala nje emva koko). Ngokumangalisayo, ukubamba kakuhle kwaye kuhle. Kwaye kuphela kwiminyaka eli-15, emva kwexesha elininzi, umthungo wabonakala. Ndandityelele nje abazali bam. Umama wamangaliswa - le ncwadana iqhekekileyo yenze into engaqhelekanga, kwaye nini? Ndixelele. Umama akazange akholelwe ixesha elide, bathi, ndisena kule nkonzo ikhulu, iya kuqaphela. Kodwa iinkcukacha zaziqinisekile.
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Andixeleli ukuba ndihlawula malini kwiiklasi zelizwi. Andikaxeleli ukuba ndihambe njani nabahlobo ukuya elwandle kwaye kukho ilanga ilanga kwaye ndihlambe ngaphandle kwayo yonke into (kakuhle, nokuba kunobomi bakho buqu, ngaphandle kwayo). Kwaye ifoto yakhe yedwa ngezandla zakhe zathunyelwa kwibhlog ethandwayo. Yonke into ingenatyala kakhulu, kodwa umama wazi ngokuzithandela.
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Andixeleli ukuba iminyaka emihlanu iye kwi-psychotherapist.***
Ixesha elide kakhulu, kude kube ngulwesixhenxe, kubonakala ngathi inyanga ayizange ichaze ngokukhulelwa, akukho namnye ngaphambili okanye wesibini.
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Anazi ukuba ndenze ntoni isisu.
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