Xa ndandijonga kwikhathuni yabantwana "ekhangela i-nemo", amaxesha ahlekisayo yayingeyo, abo bavela apho intlanzi ye-Dori ivele - isidalwa esimnandi nesisasazekileyo sinememori emfutshane emhlabeni. Bendenze kum ukuba iminyaka engaphantsi kweminyaka yayisesisele njenweni, ndoba yingxowa yedori. Ngaba ndiya kuhlekisa? Rhoqo. Ngenxa yokuba ukuhleka kuphela kukoyikisa ukusuka ekuhlangelweni kunye nokuphelelwa lithemba, xa ilizwe lakho litshone - ukuba uthatha i-axioms ukuba ukuqonda kwethu kwehlabathi lihlabathi lethu lehlabathi.
Mhlawumbi, andizukukhumbula nale mihla ndichithe ngokunyhashwa kwenkumbulo (ababesele ngoku, kodwa ayikho kwaoko, ukuba, njengabafazi abaninzi bale mihla, abangenamkhwa webhlog.
Ndineerekhodi ezininzi ezivaliweyo kunye nezimfutshane kakhulu. Ukuba bendiqala ukuthandabuza imicimbi yosuku, ndibomeleza kwisincoko esinye, okanye ndikhethe oqaqambileyo kwaye ndikhonze njengebhayisekile, i-anecdote, ngoku ndibambe i-smart yam ngokukhawuleza Andifuni ukulibala kuphela ngenxa yokuba ndiqondile: kwezi zinto zincinci kwaye kukho ubomi bam, kwaye iya kuba yiminyaka emihlanu, kwaye eya kwabelana ngayo izinto ezincinci ezivela kwifilimu , kanye xa ndivuya. Njengoko ikati iphosa enye iqhinga, ngokukodwa. Njengoko bendifumana umzobo wam wokwishumi elivisayo kwaye ndakwazi ukukhumbula ukuba imeko iboniswa kuyo - imeko ebusweni bam, kwaye ivakalelwa kukuba ndihlala ixesha elide, nangona ubomi bam buzalwe kwaye ndiphelisa yonke yesibini.
Andikwenzeki nasiphi na isifo esingafikeleliyo, sitshabalalisa ubuntu. Ngethamsanqa. Ukulimala kunye nokungakhathali kwazo kwenzeka kum emva kwakhe. Ekuqaleni intloko yam ibingquba, ndasasazeka, ndalibala. Ndibeka phi isitshixo? - Isiqalo esihle, ayinyamezeli nantoni na, ngenxa yokuba ukungabikho kokuphuma kwabaninzi kwenzeke kwabaninzi. Iphi iti yam? Ndifuna iti, ndenze iti? Okanye ngaba ndenze iti ngolunye usuku ndalibala? Iphi i-fucking i-mug eneti, apho ndikhangele khona ukujonga kwakhe kwaye ayiphi enye? - Yindlela yokuba ubudlelwane buqale njani, ngakumbi xa ixesha eliphindaphindiweyo.
Kungekudala sonke safumanisa ukuba isicaka sam kunye nokulibala kundenza ndibe yingozi kancinane kunye nabanye. Awunako ukubeka i-kettle kwaye ushenxise kude okanye unyuke ukuhlamba kwaye uhambe. Akukho kwi-Intanethi akunyanzelekanga ukuba ulibale malunga nabo kwangoko. Ukuba akukho mntu ekhaya, kwaye ufuna ngenene ushushu, ubeka iketile kwaye uhlale phambi kwesitovu, simjonge ngononophelo. Kuba le ncwadi, i-smartphone, yokuthunga kwaye ujonge kwifestile kunokukwenza ulibale ngeketile.
Ipetroli yombane yayingayi kuma i-wiring, kodwa okwethutyana ingxaki isombulule i-teapot ngempempe. Andikhumbuli ukuba kutheni kwaye, ngelishwa, kodwa impempe iguqukile. Mhlawumbi udiniwe ngam. Ngapha koko, into eyanceda engabi kakhulu. Ndandihlala ndingasabelanga kwimpempe, kuba andikhumbuli ukuba kuthetha ntoni esi siqu.
Sele ndiyitya namhlanje?
Ngaba kufuneka nditye?
Kutheni ndimi phambi kwefriji? Kusenokwenzeka ukuba ndifuna ukukhangela ukuba kuphi ukutya ekhaya.
Kutheni ndimi ekhitshini phambi kwefriji? Sele ndijonge ngaphakathi okanye hayi? Sele ndenze into kwaye kufuneka ndihambe okanye ndidinga ukwenza into?
Akukho nto ebulalayo. Akukho nto eyoyikisayo njengeendlela ezimbi. Akukho nto ibuhlungu. Ndizifumana nje ngaphakathi komnqweno ongaqhelekanga. Kwaye isalibale ukutya okanye ukuhlamba okanye iminyaka emingaphi endinayo.
Yintoni endifuna ukurekhoda ibhlog ukuze angaze ulibale?
Ngamanye amaxesha ndifunde ibhlog yam ixesha elide, ezo rekhodi zazikho mdala kwaye zide. Ndavula ubomi bam ngenxa yam.
Ngamanye amaxesha ndamkhumbula ngaphandle kweengxaki. Kwaye malunga nokutya. Kwaye yonke into ibonakala ilungile.
"Andinguye uMarina, ndingu Kanci," le ndoda ikhumbuza ukuba ndibhenela. UMarina ngowesibini. Mhlawumbi, bahlala bendikhumbuza. Okanye yonke into iqalile nje? Ngayiphi na imeko, amantombazana akajongwa. Ndiyawathanda kakhulu amantombazana am. Bandinceda kakhulu, ngaphezu kokuba ungalindela ukwishumi elinesibini ngokweemvakalelo ngaphandle kwamava angaphambili okhathalelo, umzekelo, umakhulu onesifo sengqondo esixhalabisayo.
Kwaye lonke eli xesha kufuneka ndisebenze. Hayi kakhulu, ngomsebenzi ophambili - umyeni. Kodwa kuyimfuneko, uhlahlo-lwabiwo mali losapho yinto enjalo. Ndibhala izicatshulwa kwikhompyuter. Ndithatha umntu ebantwaneni kwaye ndixoxe ngesihloko setekisi. Ndisukelana ndithetha ukuba ndingathanda ukubhala. Ke kufuneka, kuba xa ndihlala phantsi ukuze ndibhale, andizukukhumbula ukuba ukucinga njani isicatshulwa. Abanye babantwana bahlala kufutshane kwaye bandikhumbuza. Emva koko ikhupha ukuphinda ingcinga, endiyithwaxwa yingozi ngoku. Ngamanye amaxesha iprints nje kum ngelixa ndizama ukuchaza, kuba ukungcungcuthekiswa kakhulu kuyandithintela ukuba ndibone isicatshulwa kwaye ndibakhuphe.
Into ephambili ayilibali ukuthumela. Kutheni ndijonga kwifolda "ingeniswe" ngendlela?
Oonyana bam bangummangaliso. Onke abantwana bam bubomi bam. Andithethi ngeemvakalelo, hayi i-Pematic Plorical. Andikwazi, ngokungathi ndiqhubeka ndingubomi ngaphandle kwabo.
Masiye esitolo. Mama, sasifuna ukuthatha iKefir. Mama, sele sithathile isonka. Mama, jonga indlela ehlekisayo yokubeka iibhanki, izihloko zezihloko zongezwa kwigama eliqatha! Mama, ubeka imali kwipokotho yasekhohlo.
Makhe siye kwimibongo yangokuhlwa. Siye samamela iibhadi. Saya kutyelela. Umama, u-Elesis uhlala kwi-tushinsky. Sisiphi isikhululo sinjani ngoku? I-Poveletskaya. Sisiphi isikhululo sinjani ngoku? Novokuznetskaya. Ngaba uyakhumbula ukuba kufuneka sihambe phi? Ewe, Mama, ndiyakhumbula. Iindawo ezimbini. Ngomgaqo omnye. Mama, yiya.
Mhlawumbi umcimbi ukhumbule, njengeyona ntlanzi yeDori, kodwa andikhumbuli ukuba kube kanye, ndiphendule le mibuzo ingapheliyo, abantwana bathi bacaphuka okanye bacaphukile.
Mama, cula. Ngoku iintsuku ezine. Le yikhekhe. Ngaba ufuna iti? Mama, le yiti. Ufuna iti. Ukucula ikhekhe, kunjalo. Ndiza kusela iti nawe.
Ndixelela ibali elihlekisayo lobuntwana bam. Okubangela umdla kukuba, kubonakala kum, okanye uphume usonge?
Ndisengqondweni yam. Andizenzi izinto ezimbi. Ndiyazi ukuba ndibona izinto eziphambi kwakho. Andinazimvo ezihlangeneyo. Akubonakali kum ukuba iidemon zindigxotha. Nkosi, ewe ndilungile! Ndidinga uncedo oluncinci. Abantu abaninzi bafuna uncedo oluncinci.
Kwakukho nezikhumbuzo kwiselfowuni, kunye nezincamathelisi ezingenakubalwa kwikhompyuter. Ndazixelela ngokwam, ukuze ndingaphulukani nengcinga yam, ndivusa yonke into, nditsho ndithandabuza phantse yonke imizuzu. Ndibuyisele iziganeko kwingqondo yam kwi-tabs, njengomcuphi, ndingasondi iqhina elintsonkothileyo. Ndifundile izinto eziphambili ukuba ndihambe ngokungqongqo kwiindawo eziphambili okanye ziqhubeke ukugcina esandleni sakho, nokuba ingabakhululi kangakanani na ngaphambili. Iiglasi zifakwe kwityala elibomvu, kwi-smartphone-kwityala elibomvu, incwadana yokundwendwela kunye nemali-kwingxowa ebomvu yempahla, kuba i-rismetic ye-rosmetic, kuba ibomvu yazikhunjuzwa apha yamehlo kwaye izikhumbuza. Kodwa uninzi lwazo zonke iiqhinga lwandinceda abantu. Uncedo oluncinci lwandinika ubomi obuninzi.
Ndiphi uMike? Ndiyithenge okanye unganika i-hostess? Kutheni itafile yekofu ingasasebenzi ngasekhohlo kwengqengqelo? Ngaba singayibuyisela? Itheyibhile iphinde yenzeke kwindawo yokuphuma, kuba iyimfuneko ukubiza ilaptop, ii-smartphones, isibane sebhetri. Kutheni kungenjalo itafile ngasekhohlo? Kulungile, makame apho. Iphi itafile? Itheyibhile, kwabonakala kum, sihlala siyibeka kwindawo ethile. Uwufumene phi umdlali ongezelelweyo kuthi kufutshane nengqengqelo? Ndiphantse ndakhubeka.
Ndimi esitratweni ndinamantombazana kwaye ndihlwayela iingoma ngozuko lweholide ethile, kwaye kuya kuphela ukuba ndikhwaze ngexesha lamagama ambalwa, kodwa akukho undibhuqa. Sitya kwi-cafe. Ndinentombi entle endinayo. Dade, sela iti yakho. Uphambi kwakho. Ndikuchitha. Ndindenzele. Kutheni uye kwindawo engaphantsi kwesinye ukuba ungayinkampani? Awufuni ukuhlamba intloko yakho? Masihambe, nantsi itawuli. Iti iti, uphambi kwakho.
Ngoku iti isesandleni sam sasekunene kum, kufutshane neqhosha. Ndiyenzile ngokwam. Ndikhumbula umhla wokuzalwa kweentombi. Ndisasasazeke kancinci, kodwa kubonakala ngathi bendihlala ndisasazeke kancinci? Andikhumbuli ngokuthe ngqo. Ubuncinci, yayivela kwiingxaki zam ezisonjululwayo kwaye inkqubo iguqukile. Ngethamsanqa.
Ngokubanzi, ndifuna nje ukukuxelela malunga nendlela yokuba yi-dori yentlanzi. Okokuqala, ayisoyiki ngokupheleleyo xa unentsapho enothando kwaye kunye nabahlobo abanothando ngokwenene. Okwesibini, kuyinyani ukuba iyahlekisa, umkhandi wenkwenkwe. Kodwa ngaphandle kwamangeniso ebhlog, andikhumbuli ukuba kutheni.
Ukusuka kwiBhodi yoHlelo: Ukuba isalamane sakho sihlala siqala ukuwisa izinto, sibuze imibuzo kwimovie okanye ngalo lonke ixesha ukulibala ngento ethile, zama ukubonisa i-neurologist. Kwaye nceda umemeze, nceda, ayikuko ngqo.
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