"IPIX Ethandekayo! Kukho izinto endifuna ukutsho intombi yam kwaye andikwazi ukufumana umoya. Emva koko ndabhalela ileta-kwaye ayizange ibe mhle ukuyithumela. Ndiyazi ukuba uyayifunda iphephancwadi lakho. Shicilela ileta, nceda, apha ungaziwa. Enkosi kakhulu, "Abahleli bafumana isicelo esingaqhelekanga.
Kwaye uthathe isigqibo sokuphumeza. Sinethemba lokuba le ntombazana ifunde ileta.
Intombi Ethandekayo!
Sele uneminyaka elishumi elinesixhenxe, ngonyaka uya kuthathwa njengomdala. Kuya kufuneka ukuba sithethe nawe ngokungakhathali, kodwa andizange ndifunde ukukhokela kakhulu nawe, izinto ezibalulekileyo, ezinzulu. Ngendlela, ndikucela oku ukuze uxolelwe.
Kuba yonke into endiyifunayo kukuxelela, uya kubona kule leta. Musa ukoyika, akunjalo, andikho kwingonyamakazi yonke i-telstoy. Ndifuna ukuthetha nawe malunga nelizwe olifumana kum. Hayi, umama akazange aphambuke kwaye akazange abe lilifa isithsaba. Ndithetha ngeli lizwe sihlala nawe.
Ngapha koko, ilizwe yindlu, inkulu kakhulu. Abazali kufuneka bayidlulisele kubantwana ukuba abamhle, emva koko ubuncinci bakhuselekile. Ke apho kulula kakhulu kulala kwaye ngovuyo uvuke. Ndineentloni, kodwa ayiyonto yonke into oyifumanayo. Kwakufuneka ufumane ilizwe apho ungahamba khona esitratweni ngaphandle koloyiko, kuba nasiphi na ilizwe lakho eliphantsi kwilizwe lakho. Naliphi na ixesha losuku. Kodwa ufumana ilizwe apho kuphantse kuphele ukuba kukho imeko edla ngokudlwengulwa kwaye ivunyelwe. Umzekelo, ukuba uya kwindawo engaqhelekanga okanye ebusuku. Kwaye ukuba uyakwazi ukubulala umdlwenguli-emva kwayo yonke loo nto, intombazana engafane ilincama, kunzima kakhulu ukubala imikhosi-uya kuvalwa.
Apho, entolongweni, awukhuselekanga. Nangona umthetho ubonelela ngokupheliswa kwakho, ukuba ufunyenwe unetyala lolwaphulo-mthetho, ulinde ukugcuma entolongweni. Kwaye ewe, ziyavunyelwa kwaye ziqhelekile njengodlwengulo. Ngokuqinisekileyo sele uyivile le nto. Ndiyathemba ukuba awucingi njalo.
Ndixolelwe ngento yokuba andinakwenza into kwilizwe lakho, ikhaya lakho lalikhuselekile kuwe. Kwaye khange azame, kuba ndingazi ukuba ndenze ntoni.
Ufunda kakhulu kwaye ungahlangabene namakhwenkwe. Khange nditsho, kodwa ndiyakhathaza, ngenxa yokuba ilishumi elinesixhenxe - intanda-thando enjalo ... Ngapha koko, ukuba uyandibuza ngelo xesha, yintoni engalunganga kuwe, andinayo ilungelo lokuthetha ukuba ungumntu nje onjalo kwaye usenentombi entle. Andikwazi nokuthi uyintombi eqhelekileyo, umthetho uyandikholisa ukuba ndithethe nawe malunga nabantu abathi, ngaphandle kolwazi olungelilo. Kulungile ukuba umthetho akendithi andithi andithi, ngulowo ungandikhululayo ukuba ndithethe.
Ukuba ungumntu wase-Lebian, uya kuba yingozi ngakumbi ukuhlala apha. Uya kuva izithuko kwaye awukwazi ukuzixela ngokwakho kunye nobomi bentombi yakho njengoko zonke ezinye iimazi zenza. Ukuba ubugqibile ngenxa yokuba ungu-Lesbian, uphinda ufunde ukuba kwezinye iimeko ukubetha abantu bavumela kwaye kuyinto eqhelekileyo. Kwaye ezi ayiyo imeko xa zizisa ingozi.
Akukho nto ndiyenzanga ukuyithintela, kwaye bengazi ukuba benze ntoni. Ndixolelwe kwakhona.
Abazali bafanele baphile kwaye basebenze ukuze abantwana babo bafumane imfundo simahla kwaye ngaphandle kwezithintelo, kwaye kuya kuba yimfundo engcono kunabazali. Kuphela kwelizwe lisiya phambili.
Kodwa nam, imfundo iba mandundu. Ukuziphatha okungakumbi, uhlolo olungakumbi, wonke umntu ufundiswa ukuba agcine izinto ezisesikweni kwaye ahlole iitsheki, endaweni yokufunda nje. Nakwiziko olibhalisa ngaphezu kwam. Ndikwazile ukukuqesha kuphela umfundisi-ntsapho omnye ... andikhange ndiqeshe nabani na. Ndifundiswe ngokuqhelekileyo esikolweni.
Ewe, sele injalo. Konke okudingayo, unokufunda esikolweni, ukuba akunamavila. Kodwa andizange ndishiye ilizwe elinjalo. Andinakwenza nantoni na kulungelelwaniso ndisahleli kuwe.
Ndixolele.
Abazali kufuneka bashiye abantwana kwilizwe abalungiselela ngcono kunabo baphathwa ebuntwaneni babo, kwaye amayeza afikelelekayo. Ngethamsanqa, unethamsanqa kwaye uhlala eMoscow, ukuze ukwazi ukufumana unyango ngexesha kwaye simahla. Kodwa, ukuhlazisa kwam, ukuba uthatha isigqibo sokuphila kwesinye isixeko selizwe lakho, uya kujongana noncedo olungxamisekileyo okanye lwangoku lokufumana ubunzima kwaye lube nzima ngakumbi. Into eyayibonakala ifunekayo kumayeza ebuntwaneni bam, ngoku wayebhengezwe njengabangaphezu kwemfuneko, kwaye ilizwe alikho gqirha kunye noluhlu lokulala.
Hlala okanye ufe kwangoko. Hayi into endifuna ukuyidlulisela kuwe.
Ndixolele kwaye ngenxa yoko.
Ndixolele ngayo yonke into. Ndinentloni kakhulu. Kodwa ngendazi kwaye andazi ukuba ndenze ntoni. Andincedi. Ngendlela, ndiyazisola ngenxa yokuba unokuziva ungancedi.
Ndikuthanda kakhulu ngenene.
Umama.