Molo! Ngalo lonke ixesha ulonwabo ndilifunde ipics yezinto.ru, kodwa kunqabile ukuphawula (okanye endaweni yoko, phantse akupheleli). Kutheni ngequbuliso uthatha isigqibo sokubhala? Khawuqwalasele olu nyango lwe-precchotherapy. Ndingathanda ukubeka lo mbhalo kwi-facebook yam, kodwa ngekhe ndithathe isigqibo. Makhe abe nawe. Nokuba sele ewela kwifolda "kagaxeni".
Ndinentombi entle-yesampulu entle yomfazi ozinzileyo. Ngokukwakhela umsebenzi, ukuhamba, ukutyalelwa kwikamva lakhe kwaye kungekudala uza kuba ngumama. Uyindoda elungileyo kakhulu.
Kwaye undijonga ngobubele kwaye omangalisayo. Kutshanje, le fele ifana nokudelela. Kuba sasifunda kunye eyunivesithi, kwaye apho, ukuze ndithethe, ndifake amathemba amanye. -Kukhonza, kodwa akazange anikezele. Emva kokuphumelela kwiZiko, ndatshata, ndasebenza iminyaka emibini (e-ofisini nasekude kakhulu), emva koko yagula kakhulu, kubonakala ngathi ndiye ndaya emsebenzini. Kule minyaka isixhenxe idlulileyo, bendigcina umyeni wam kunye noMama (emva kokusweleka kukaMama-ngumyeni kuphela). Oko kukuthi, andikho into engaphezulu komfazi wendlu. A, ngaphandle koko, andinasizathu sokufumana "imin 'yam" kubahlobo bam - andingumama. Ndineminyaka engama-32 kwaye kwixa elizayo andicwangcisi ukukhulelwa.
NgoLwesihlanu, ndiza kumkhawulela kwaye ndimbalwa kwezorhwebo kwiqela - lonke usapho, bonke abantwana, uninzi-ngomsebenzi. Kwaye nam.
Ngaba ndiziva ndikhululekile kwindlela yam yokuphila? Ukunyaniseka - hayi.
Ndiyoyika eli lizwe. Rhoqo. Yonke imihla. Ukusukela kusasa ukuya ngokuhlwa, ngamanye amaxesha ubambe ubusuku. Nawuphi na ingxaki ye-petty putess me yothusa. Ngcwele, ndiyamangalisa, ndihlangabezana kakuhle, kubonakala ukuba, ezinye iindawo ezifihliweyo zibandakanyiwe. Kubonakala kum ukuba ndinexhala. Ngamanye amaxesha iyeke-ndicule, ndenza indlu, nomyeni wam kwaye ndenza zonke izinto ezinomdla kunye. Kwaye ngamanye amaxesha andikwazi nokubiza iklinikhi yabucala ndinabaphathi abanobubele kakhulu ukuba benze idinga. Okanye phuma endlwini. Nokuba uphume nje eflethini ekungeneni.
Ngaphandle koku, umyeni wakhe uyandithanda. Iyanceda kwaye ixhase. Andazi into endiyifaneleyo. Kodwa ndiyazi ukuba uyirhamncwa elindidibanisa nehlabathi. Enkulu kwaye imbi. Umhlaba ekungekho khuseleko. Umhlaba ongaxelwanga ngayo. Umhlaba apho umama othandekayo uvuyisana nomyeni wakho ngosuku lwayo lokuzalwa, kwaye emva koko uhleli phantsi esitulweni aze afe ezandleni zakho.
Ndingayixela njani ngayo? Kwaye okona kubaluleke kakhulu - ngaba umntu uza kufuna ukuva?
Ngamanye amaxesha ndizama ukuthetha. Kodwa ndibona amehlo omfana wam. Kwaye ndiguqulela yonke into ibe yiyo. Ndiyabetha. Jonga uloyiko lwam lobudenge! Umntu oqhelekileyo unokulala njani kwaye angalali kangangeeveki ezimbini, kuba umyeni uthunyelwe inyanga kwinyanga kuhambo lweshishini? Ndiyoyika njani ukuhlanya xa ukhulelwe? Ndinokuziqukumbela njani kubi "lonke ixesha?
Hayi, andifuni kuthi intombi yam inobomi obucacileyo obucacileyo. Wadlula kakhulu - kwaye e-Abjuz, ngenkalukano, nangokulolo. Ngumnqweno wakhe kuphela ovavanyo olwenziwe lukhuselekile, anyanzelwa ukuba arhoxise iqokobhe elikhuselweyo, afunda ukoyika uxanduva kwaye alingane namandla abo, kwaye ndiqala ukuba ne-migraine yam yoxinzelelo. Ngokufikisa, emva kokusweleka kukayise, yayilungele kakhulu imncinci kwaye ungahamba isikolo. Kwaye ngoku sisihogo.
Ubomi bam bonke ndiyasakha icocoon yam encinci yokukhusela. Ngemingxunya yomoya, kuba ndisabathanda abantu. Nokuba unexhala. Ubomi buyoyikeka kakhulu, kwaye abantu balungile.
Ngaba ndifuna ukugcina ubuhlobo? Funa ngokwenene. Kungoko ndineentloni. Ncnci kakhulu. Kuphela ngezo ntsuku xa kukho omnye umyalezo osusela kumhla womhla wethu namantombazana eWetsapp.
Kulungile. Ukuziphatha akuyi.
Uve ntoni kule phe? I-propost yam ye-coperah i-andern malunga nentombazana. AKUKHO BUNGOZI LAM! "Yonke into ayinjalo." Kunye noncumo. Wayengathethi kwanto, ngaphandle kokuba amava obomi bakhe awazihambelani namava obomi eSara nabanye abafazi abaninzi. Kwaye ngenxa yesizathu esithile ukuba indenze yandikhathaza. Kuba ndiyintombazana apho ibhedi ifakwe kuyo kwaye ifumane iisokisi ezimbini ezifanayo "kwiintsuku zam ezimbi" -impumelelo.
Ngentlonelo enkulu kuwe nangomsebenzi wakho, k.
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