Pics.ru amakhala wokondwa nthawi zonse kupereka mawu ndi owerenga ake. Makamaka ngati ali ndi zomwe anganene. Nthawi ino, talemba msungwana yemwe adakhala wachikazi atatha kuyesa ... kuvomereza Chiyuda. Adafunsa kuti asasonyeze dzina lake.
Ndinali ndi zaka zitatu zokhudzana ndi chipembedzo. Ndinali wokulira pakuphunzira zachikhalidwe chachiyuda, zomwe zimandipangitsa kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi achiyuda.
Panali zifukwa zambiri zomwe zimapangitsa chidwi chachipembedzo komanso zifukwa zambiri zomwe ndinapeza kuti ndizabwino. Munjira zambiri, Chiyuda chimandikopa ndi ziwerengero zambiri zazizizi za akazi olimba, zimawoneka kwa ine zomwe azimayi aku Orthodoxy anali ovutika maganizo.
Popeza sindinali Myuda pa Galaeh, ndinafunikira kuti ndidutse chifukwa cha kusamvana, koma ichi ndi njira yovuta yophunzirira. Chifukwa chake ndidapeza gulu la omwe sanali Ayuda omwe amaphunzira maziko a Chiyuda pansi pa chiyambi cha arabi a Orthodox.
Poyamba, gulu ili limawoneka lopanda tanthauzo, ndipo sindinachite manyazi ndi azimayi ochepa. Amuna kumeneko adayamba kuchita molondola. Onse owerengedwa, amakamba nkhani, miyambo, kuvomerezedwa kwa omwe sanali Ayuda kuti azikondwerera maholide achiyuda ndikukondwerera Loweruka. Pang'onopang'ono ndinalowa mu miyambo. Ndinasintha mtundu wa chakudya (chomwe, mwa njira, kodi sichinathandizire kuti thanzi langa) silinawerenge mabuku ofunikira, ndikumayesa kulembera Loweruka kuti ayambe kuzolowera nyimbo ya "Kulondola".
Komabe, tsopano ndikumvetsetsa kuti mlengalenga kumeneko kuphatikizidwa ndi zogonana komanso kudana ndi achikazi onse.
Ponena kuti azimayi anali ndi gawo lalikulu pakupanga ndi kuteteza chikhalidwe cha Chiyuda, koma nthawi yomweyo kunamabwa - ndi atsikana amakono pano ali ndi chiyani? Chokhacho chomwe akazi amakono angachite kuzunzidwa ndikumutumikira amuna awo.
Nthawi yomweyo, ndidawona, zomwe azimayi amasewera m'moyo wa Ayudawo amatenga gawo lalikulu, koma tidasiyanitsidwa nazo.
Kuphatikiza apo, amuna amene adachita nawo mbali m'moyo wa a Bnei Nowa akudana ndi mawonekedwe a akazi osafunikira ndikuchotsa zovuta zonse za anthu masiketi afupiafupi, kusesa Asilamu ndi Orthodox chifukwa cha kusalemekeza akazi.
Zikuwoneka kwa ine kuti hysteria zikukula pang'onopang'ono.
Patatha chaka chimodzi, ndinali pamkhalidwe komwe ndimakhala ndimakhumudwitsidwa kuti ndimanyansidwa ndi zomwe ndikufuna kuyeretsa. Nditamaliza ntchito, sindinayamikidwe - ndinauzidwa kuti tsopano nditha kuyang'ana kwambiri nyonga yokonzekera ukwati.
Ndinalemba kuti "pali mwana wabwino, ndikuvomereza ophika (yemwe sakhala Myuda, yemwe sanavomereze kuti Yudasimu)" kuti ine sindine munthu wopanda mwamuna - aliyense! - Sindikumvetsa malembawo komanso malamulo asanu ndi awiri a Nowa. Pang'onopang'ono, kuyambira powerenga kwathunthu miyambo ya Chiyuda, azimayi ankadziwana - amakhulupirira kuti kuti iwonso ndiofunika kwambiri ndi kuwachirikiza mwamuna wake, ndi kukonda uzimu kumafotokozedwa pamenepa.
Ndinkafuna kudziwa zambiri, koma ndinatsimikiziridwa kuti sindine woyeneranso pamaziko a thupi langa.
Koma kenako ndinakumana ndi malembedwe a mayi wina yemwe anali pafupi ndi ine. Panalibe kukana kwa akazi, kunalibe kuchititsa manyazi poyerekeza ndi amuna. Ndinanyamula ... Koma ndi kulumikizana mozama, mayi uyu adadziwonetsa.
Anadzisandutsa cholinga chondisintha, ndipange "mkazi wabwino." Adalemba m'mawu omwe "amagwira" omwe "amagwira ntchito" pamwamba pa zomwe tikuika patsogolo. Amandilembera nthawi zambiri, monga ine, monga ine, amene sindimafuna "kutumikirani mwamuna wake," "Dziwani kuti ndingathe kuyeretsa, ndikungokonzekera ukwati wolondola kuchokera kumbali yake Onani. Nthawi zonse ankandiuza kuti ndiyenera "kuzindikira momwe ulili."
Ndidayesa.
Ndinazindikira.
Binje pake.
Izi zidandithandiza kwambiri.
Ndipo kenako zochitika zingapo zinachitika, zomwe zidasintha kwambiri moyo wanga.
Ndinkakhala wosungulumwa, wokana ndi anthu mwakutero, ndipo anali kufunafuna thandizo m'chipembedzo, koma poyamba ndinali ndi zambiri zobera. Pang'onopang'ono, ndinayamba kumvetsetsa zomwe adandisokoneza. Ndikuganiza kuti mderali ndi weniweni, osati kwenikweni, ndikadakhala ndi mphamvu zokana kukana.
Nthawi yomweyo, kuwerenga umodzi wa malo achiyuda, ndinakumana ndi mawu achiyuda mosayembekezereka (iye anali Myuda - ndipo nthawi yomweyo akatswiri azachikazi). Ndinachita chidwi ndi chilankhulo chopatsidwa. Lolani kuti zizingotanthauzira, chinthu cholakalaka, chopweteka, chopatsa chidwi. Ndinayamba kuwerenga malemba a Dovokin, ndipo izi sizinasinthe mawonekedwe anga padziko lonse lapansi, koma zimatsimikizira kuti anali woyenera.
Kenako ine mwangozi m'manja mwanga ndinalandira buku lonena za miyambo yokhudza miyambo ya matriariarchall, pomwe zipembedzo zina zimatsutsidwa.
Ndipo kenako ndidakondana.
Mtsikana.
Ndinayang'ana chikondi changa ndipo sindimamvetsetsa kuti izi ndizonyansa komanso zoipa - poti ndikufuna kuyenda ndi munthuyu pansi pa mitengo yamaluwa. Koma zongopeka za uphunzitsi wanga zimakopeka, zachilengedwe, zomwe mwaganiza kale, zomwe panthawiyo sizinakhale nazo - sindikhala mkwiyo kwenikweni chifukwa.
Ndinali ndi mikangano yovuta kwambiri yamkati.
Mkazi ameneyo ananditumizira vidiyo ya torsinov, komwe analankhula za A Lesbians, - ndipo ine, ndikudziwa za ntchito za Torsinov, atazindikira kuti anthu awa ayenera kuthamanga. Ndinazindikira kuti sindingapeze uzimu wangwiro kuti anthu, m'mawu onse amatambasula kuti ayeretsedwe ndi owala, onani mwa ine chabe nyama. Ndipo pofunafuna njira yoyenera, iwonso amatsutsana, kulowa m'chidani ndi kundikokera.
Ndipo panali amuna angapo omwe anapempha kuti andiuze za Torah, ndipo zonse zinathira mu "zithunzi zakumasautsa zidabwera kwa ine, ayi, sindili wotere, nonse simumabwera nawo." Zinali zowopsa. Sizinali pazomwe ndimayembekezera.
Ndimamvetsetsa bwino anthu oyipawa ndi achinyengo omwe ali ndi kulikonse. Ndimamvetsetsa bwino kuti pali madera achiyuda (sindikudziwa ngati ali ku Russia) omwe amalandira maukwati omwe amagonana ndi m'busa. Ndimasilira debra bwino, wotsogolera LGBT, tsopano atanyamula positi ya rabbi ku Portland.
Ndinaona zithunzi za mayi woyembekezera ku Tfiline, ndipo zinali bwino, koma ndidauzidwa - Berzko. Nditayesa kuphunzira za Reminormississists pomwe ndimadziwa, makamaka, izi zimayambitsa kuphedwa kwa Nazi ndipo Mulungu wachita ntchito ya mtundu wanji.
Koma tsopano ndazindikira kuti malingaliro onena za amayi omwe ali mdera limenelo sanali nkhani yapadera - iyi ndi gawo la vuto lalikulu dongosolo.
Zolemba za Andrea Dovokin adanditsogolera ku gulu lachikazi. M'malo mwake, izi ndidatsatira kwa zaka khumi ndi zisanu ndi chimodzi. Ndikuganiza kuti zidandisunga kuchokera ku zozama kupita kumalo oopsa. Ndi achikazi, si onse osalala. Panali mikangano yokhudzana ndi chipembedzo (ine makamaka, pamene ndimayesetsabe kuphatikiza zipembedzo ndi zachikazi, kungoyankhulana, luso, zopweteka, zopweteka komanso zopweteka kwambiri pa Transgender.
Koma palibe chilichonse chomwe chidandipangitsa kumva kuti ndanyansidwa, anali wokondwa kugawana zidziwitso, ngati sindikudziwa china chake, nthawi zonse pamakhala anthu omwe amawoneka pafupi ndi ine. Mulimonsemo, ngakhale mikangano m'malo achikazi inali kapena malingaliro, kapena zamunthu, koma sizinakhazikike pa "tchimo, themberero, ndipo ndizonyansa."
Ndimasunga mosamala ubale ndi atsikana ena omwe adakumana ndi nthawi yachipembedzo. Tikondwerera wina ndi mnzake ndi maholide achiyuda, timagawana nyimbo, zithunzi ndi malemba, othandizirana, ngakhale pano pa mbali zosiyanasiyana za mipiringidzo. Koma tayandikira pamene zachikazi sizinali chiphunzitso kwa ine, koma tsiku lililonse.
Titha kunena kuti ndinakana Mulungu wa Agilemani chifukwa cha masiketi afupi ndi "zosokoneza." Koma ndikuganiza kuti kukana cholinga komanso chidani chopanda chipembedzo chomwe chimakutidwa ndi chipembedzocho, kuti chikhale ndi ulongo ambiri, amadzivomera kukhala munthu, kupeza mitundu yayikulu yachikazi, ubale wa akazi, ubwenzi wa akazi.
Mafanizo: Zithunzi zochokera mu kanema "Mulungu ndi wamkulu, ndipo ndine wocheperako"