Zimakhala zachisoni makolo akabwera nafe osalakwa. Komansonso, pamene amakana aliyense kapena kukalanje, zomwe tidachita. Ndipo musamvetsetse, kusankhana mwadala kapena kuyiwalika.
Zikuwonekeratu kuti ndi osasangalala kwambiri ndi chikumbukiro chathu. Tidafunsa owerenga ndipo owerenga kuti tigawane nkhani zathu zogundana kapena kuda kuiwala kwa makolowo.Wosowa Umphawi Wathu
Mwachitsanzo, amayi anga adayiwala momwe ndidafunira kuti ndimupatse maphunziro, ndikupempha kuti mphatso yanga ya zaka 18 inali yokwera mtengo kuposa momwe adakonzera.
Ndipo mu kalasi yoyamba, adapanga kuti adachepetsedwa ndi malipiro a zolakwa zanga zoyipa. Ndinkakhala ndi mantha, chifukwa sindinkavutika kulola kalatayo, ndipo mphunzitsiyo anali wolamulira komanso pakamwa nthawi zonse. Nditakumbutsa, amayi anga anati "inde, mwina ndidasewera nanu."
Ndipo ine ndayiwala bwanji pamene ine ndinali ndi zaka makumi awiri, mchimwene wanga amanyoza ine kuchimbudzi, ndipo sanachite chilichonse kuti chithandizire. Inu, akuti, zikuwoneka kuti mudzakuyang'anani ... Mnyamatayo anali "wabwino," soberi m'nyumba mwathu sanawonekere.
Osteochondrosis
Ndili ndi zaka khumi ndi ziwiri, mayi anga anali kudwala, sanadzuke - analibe mwendo. Onsewa adazisamalira kwa nthawi yayitali ndipo adandipititsa chifukwa chodyetsa zonse zotopetsa kwambiri. Kuphatikiza apo, anali ndi kanthu m'mutu mwake, adayang'ana zonse ndikuuzidwa kuti: Kawi kaze kawiya kanatsegulidwa ... momveka bwino, ndidandibweretsera , Ndinali wonenepa komanso wamantha pa nyumba yonse. Ndipo nditaima nthawi yoti ndithamange ndipo ndinayamba kufuula - "Yotsekedwa, inazimitsidwa, osauma, 'sanatemberere,' ananditemberera ndipo ndinalengeza kuti sindilinso mwana wamkazi. Zima zinali, usiku, kunja kwa zenera, m'chipindacho chamdima (kuwala kudakwiyitsidwa). Ikhala ikutsegulidwa kuti ikhale yabwino komanso kumira, koma isanakwane, ndipo ndinali wamantha ndipo ndimazindikira kwambiri.Ndipo ndikakula, zidapezeka kuti izi sizinali choncho, samakumbukira. Eya, osteochondrosis adachiritsidwa ... ndipo ndi.
Wadyera
Amayi athu amafunsa ntchito zotere. Panalibe chilichonse pano. Nthawi zina chithunzi china cha dziko chimapezeka m'malo odabwitsa.
Mwachitsanzo, ndalandira maphunziro owonjezereka kuyambira 1986. Poyamba, ma ruble asanu (maziko anali 50), kenako ma ruble 25, ndiye kuti ndinali ndi mphunzitsi wamaphunziro kenako Lenin. Kenako sukulu ya kusukulu, ndiye malipiro ake. Ndinkakhala ndi makolo anga, amayi anga adapuma pantchito kumapeto kwa maphunziro anga (kenako ndikugwira ntchito ku Council of Veterans, kenako kukhothi), ndipo papa walemala kuyambira 1987.
Pomwe panali maphunziro, ndinasiya zonse zomwe zinali pansi. Ndipo ndalamayi idagula mabuku, zovala, chakudya kunja kwa nyumba, timapepala ta tram. Chakudya kunyumba ndi renti - apa ndinapereka ma rubles 50 kwa makolo anga. Ndipo nditayamba kugwira ntchito, ndinapereka theka la ndalama. Ngati mungaganizire kuti kuyambira 8 koloko mpaka 10 pm, ine ndinali pantchito kuyambira 8 koloko (pamenepo ndipo idadyetsedwa - pa theka la malipiro omwe angaganizirepo bwino.
Ndinayamba kugwira ntchito mu 1992, ndipo mu 1997 ndinakwatirana ndipo pamapeto pake tinagawa bajeti - ndalipira gawo langa la renti komanso ndalama zokwanira (monga ine ndi amuna anga kale kuchokera ku firiji yathu. Pamasiku nthawi zina amawomberedwa ndalama, ndiye kuti ndili ndi ma ruble 5, ali nawo. "Tidakwatirana mwachizolowezi makolo omwe adachita" sitinakhale nawo, zovala zonse zomaliza tidalipira. Chifukwa tonse tikugwira ntchito, makolo ali ndi zaka zingati?
Ndipo mungaganize chiyani? Kodi amayi anga amakumbukira chiyani za zaka makumino, kodi ndimangogwira ntchito ku yunivesite? Mukuganiza chiyani, kodi kutenga nawo mbali kwachuma ndi gawo liti kunatha kukumbukira? Zero.
Chakudya cham'mawa, iye anali nawo ku Mawu ndi pano:
- Simunapereke chilichonse kuchokera pa maphunziro ndi zipolopolo. Inde? Cho, adapereka? Theka? Zowona, chiyani? O, mwina. Chabwino ... ndi zomveka, mwina ... Ndipo ndimaganiza kuti simunapatse chilichonse. Chabwino, mwina ... kuyambira munena choncho, ndiye kuti ...
Ndachita mantha kwambiri mpaka anayamba kutsamba. Zingati zomwe zidakalipo, kuchokera pamndandanda "simunapereke chilichonse" - sindikudziwa ...
Kodi akukwatire pambuyo pa izi?
Nditasankha kupatula mwamuna wakale, amayi anga apereka "chifukwa chiyani muyenera kukwatiwa?" Amakhala ndi mwamuna wake pofika nthawi imeneyo kwa zaka zisanu ndi theka. Amakana kukwatiwa kuti "kunali kofunikira kukwatiwa" chifukwa iye yekha akukakamizidwa: miyezi isanu ndi umodzi yocheza ndi mayi, siyenera kumverera, kunalibe kulumikizana kwa foni) kunayamba. kunyada "ndipo mwanenapo mawu?"Osati kwenikweni mukufuna
Ali ndi zaka 16, anafuna kukhala dokotala, ngakhale atagwira ntchito mu chiberekero, ndipo mitembo inalibe manyazi, ndipo ntchitoyo ndiyovuta. Ku Medical Institute ku Armenia, zidatheka kuti agonje agogo awo kapena mphunzitsiyo adadziwa, motero adaganiza pa mapulani: Poyamba amaganiza pasukulu yazachipatala, ndipo pambuyo pake ndi ku Institute. Amayi anawoneka kuti akuthandiza, ananena kuti amatenga zikalata ku sukulu yokha, kenako nkukoka, mpaka kunachedwa. Pa mawu anga "momwe ndimafunira kuti ndikhale dokotala" akunena tsopano kuti ndikupanga ndipo sindinachitike.
Inde, ine ndi moyo wonse!
Nditayamba moyo wolumikizana ndi mtsikana, mayi panthawi ina adalengeza kuti: "Kapena ine." Chilichonse cholondola ndi adzukulu. Mayi sotheshe adakwanitsa, koma nkomwe. Eya, tsopano, wachilengedwe, umakhala pa zokumbukira za mkangano waukulu wamaso ndi "ine? Zinalibe konse konse! Ukunena chiyani? "Mwina popita nthawi, ndikanavomereza chakuti kukumbukira kwa amayi sikuli ngati kwanga. Koma opanikizana ndi zonyoza m'mawu anga "nthawi zonse, mumapanga zamkhutu zonse" - Ichi ndi gawo labwino kwambiri pamchere pachilonda chakukhosi ...
Mtsikana
Mayi anga amati ine, ngakhale ndimaphunzira kusukulu ya boarding, ndinakhala kunyumba usiku uliwonse (eya, eya, ndipo ndinayamba misala ndikukumbukira pansi, yokutidwa ndi chinyengo). Ndi agogo (musanayambe sukulu) amakhala kuchokera ku mphamvu ya mwezi. Kuyambira pa pafupifupi zaka 6 mpaka 8, ndakhala ndikukhala, amayi anga adafotokozera kukonza nyumba yathu. Komanso, ndibwerera kunyumba ya amayi anga, ngakhale masonyengawo anali ofanana, otero otzkichell.
Sukulu ya Boarding inali Hindi. Amayi amati adandipatsa chifukwa cha maluso anga pa malilime, kotero kuti ndimaphunzitsa Hindi, ndipo ndinagona kunyumba usiku uliwonse. Pakupita nthawi kamodzi pamwezi papa, ndipo kamodzi pamwezi mu agogo anu. Ndipo ine ndikukumbukira momwe chipinda chambiri cholowera patachipinda kusukulu ndipo ndimagona pakhomo ili, ndikuiyika pa kama, chifukwa apo ayi akasupe pansi, sizinali zotheka kugona konse.
Akhmatova
Timakhala kwakanthawi pang'ono ku Russia. Tsopano amayi, kuwunikira mozama zenizeni, kumasangalatsanso kotero kuti timayang'ana zonsezo kuchokera mkati, koma kunja. Koma sakufuna kukumbukira momwe timafunikira ponena za "omwe timafunikira" ndipo kunanditsogolera ine ngati kalata ya Ahmatov, yomwe "ikadakhala ndi anthu anga ..." Phunzirani ndi kusiya. " Tsoka ilo, mathero a mawuwo anali osiyana. Ndipo ngakhale zitakhala kuti mu 1980s.Tamanda Amanama
Amalume anga pa abambo ndi pedophile. Nditanena za zigwa za amayi ake, amayi ake anati sindingavutike kulankhula za aliyense, makamaka bambo anga - amamupha m'bale wake. Ndipo amalume pambuyo pa Afghani, pamutu pa wodwalayo, mutha kungodandaula. Quote, inde. Mwambiri, chinthu chimodzi chomwe ndinali nacho chisangalalo - amakhala mumzinda wina ndipo chinabwera kwambiri. Tsikulo linali laling'ono kwambiri, anali ndi zokwanira. Usiku, ndinapita ku Crib, malinga ndi kuti ndinakhala ndi mtundu wa chidole pansi, anabwera kudzachiika mu crib, ndipo linagwira ntchito kulikonse. Ndipo ine sindimakhulupirira amayi anga - ndipo inenso ndinapemphanso kuti sindingadzutse miseche, ngati, osandichitira manyazi pamaso pa anthu.
Kenako, ndili pafupifupi 12, tinapita kwa alendo kuti tikachezere, kwa sabata limodzi. Ndipo tinali mlongo ndi mlongo mchipinda chake. Mwachidule, kusalakwa kudalandidwa amalume ake, pansi pa mlongo wogona - komanso ndi makolo ake kumbuyo kwa khoma. Sindinanene chilichonse kwa wina aliyense. Amadziwa kuti kulibe ntchito ndipo sanakhulupirire.
Pambuyo pake, patapita zaka zambiri, nditakhala ndi mwana wanga wamkazi, amayi anga amafuna kundifunsa nditayamba moyo wogonana. Chabwino, ndinanenanso. Amayi anali okwanira pamtima ndipo adandifunsa chifukwa chomwe sindinasanene chilichonse kwa iye ndi abambo, pomwe zonse zitangoyamba, sizingaikidwe mtundu wina ndi blah blah blah. Bwana, kodi sindinanene bwanji kuti, ndayankha, ndinati, ndipo kangapo konse. Inuyo mwakhala chete, chifukwa manyazi a m'banja ndi zonse zimenezo.
Mwambiri, amayi sakumbukira chilichonse chonga chonchi. Ndipo osakumbukira - zikutanthauza kuti kunalibe. Komanso ndinamuuzanso kuti: "Earth Afghan, wodwala, woti amuchotse chiyani" ...
Belroruk
Ndinagwira ntchito kuyambira zaka 13, ndipamene, kuyambira 1989. Abambo omwe ali mu zokambirana ndi matebulo omwe amagwira ntchito malipiro. Abambo ake anali abwanawa, amandithamangitsa owombera, mayi amatonthozedwa, makamaka, mwanjira ina aliyense amatenga nawo mbali. Kuyambira 13, sindinatenge ndalama zanga za makolo anga, kuyambira pa zaka 15 zidapereka maphunziro achingerezi, kumayambiriro kwa 90s ... Mwachidule, nkhaniyi idandibweretsa ndi mtsikana yemwe amakhala ndi ndalama zake nthawi zonse Ndipo amanyadira kuti salemetsa makolo ake. Mabuku onse, zovala zonse zakumanja, ayisikilimu onse, ndinagula mphatso zonse kwa zanga. Posachedwa adayamba kucheza ndi makolo anga. Kodi mwagwira? - anafunsa Abambo. Ndili ndi? Analandila ma ruble 25? Talel? Sanatenge ndalama m'thumba? - Amayi adafunsa, ndani amafuna kuti ndikhale wosangalala kwambiri. Zowona kuti ndinapita mtedza si kanthu. Ndi zomwe ndimaganiza kuti amayenera kukumbukira. Ndizowopsa kuganiza kuti ali ndi zaka zambiri za ine.Mipando
Ndikadali ndi moyo limodzi ndi makolo anga, tinali ndi nthawi yoti tichite bwino 286. Ndipo kwa pafupifupi zaka khumi, makolo anga anakhutira ndi zochitika zazikulu, kotero kuti sindinaganize zokhazikitsa mapulogalamuwo, ndikutola m'thumba ndi kafukufuku wowonjezereka - "iyi ndi kompyuta! Ndipo iwe HTO? " Zotsatira zake, ndinasunga wopusa za nkhaniyi. Kenako, patapita zaka zingapo, adawadzera kuti "Wogwiritsa ntchito PC" ndi satifiketi ya maphunziro - ndi mtundu wozizira! Ndipo adayamba kundidula, kotero kuti ine ndinapita kusukulu, komwe kumaphunzitsidwa kugwiritsa ntchito mawindo, mawu ndi Excel. Mafotokozedwe omwe nditha kugwiritsa ntchito nokha, komanso zomwe mungapeze ntchito yolipira 100,500 Dubbang pamwezi sindingandithandizire satifiketi yotere, zotsatira zake zinali. Zinali m'mbuyomu kuti tipeze ntchito yotere kwa zaka khumi (pomwe mpikisano udali wotsika kwambiri, ndipo kudziwa kwanga pamutuwu ndikofunika kwambiri) sanandipatseko.
Chokani
Nambala yankhaniyi idakokedwa nthawi yayitali. Mayi anga anali ndi njira yosangalatsa yoletsa kuyesa kwanga konse kufotokoza zomwe sindimakonda china chake. Mawu anali osavuta: Ndinu mnyumba muno - palibe, simumakonda - ndidatuluka kuno. Amati anali kamvekedwe kake ... chabwino, chonga bizinesi. Zinanenedwa mozama. Osati nthabwala. Zopangidwa mwadongosolo.
Zotsatira zake, ndaganizira kale zosankha mzaka zisanu ndi chimodzi: komwe ndipita, ndikazindikira kwambiri mumsewu. Ngati masana. Ngati usiku. Ngati chilimwe. Ngati nthawi yozizira. Kodi ndingapeze kuti usiku - ngati mungachoke pakati pausiku. Kusayenera kuwunkha - ngati chisanu. Ndinalinso ndikwapule kwakanthawi - a ruble atatu, ndikubisa kunja kwa nyumba: ngati andiyika mwachangu, kuti ndisakhale ndi nthawi yosonkhana. Ndinkadziwa komwe kuli pansi. Komwe mungabise mvula ...
Abambo anga sanadziwe za amayi a Emstem. Nditayesa kumuuza za izi - kukambirana kunali kugonjera mayi. Zachidziwikire, adandiimba mlandu wopanga ndikuyankhula. Nditakwanitsa zaka khumi ndi zitatu, zonsezi zinatuluka "." Kwa zaka makumi atatu, ndidaganiza zofunsa funso lachindunji: Kodi chinali chiyani konse? zachiyani? Ndipo ndinayankha kuti: "Mukupanga, kunalibe chilichonse chonga icho. Osachepera sindikukumbukira izi! "
Banja, mwa njirayo, silinali vuto lililonse.
Nkhani yachiwiri inali yodabwitsa. Komanso kuchokera pamndandanda wathuwu "Nonse adapanga!" Sindikudziwa chifukwa chake, koma amayi anga sanandikonde. Makamaka. Kaya ndi chifukwa chakuti ndinali chifukwa chakuti ndinali mlamumbo wa apongozi ake, mwina ndine munthu woyamba - "wobzala" nyumba zake ndi ma diaki, kapena ... sindikudziwa chifukwa chake.
Izi zidawululidwa makamaka pamene mchimwene wanga adabadwa. Apa ndipamene ndinaganizira kuti amayi athu amakambirana ndi abambo ake m'njira zosiyanasiyana. Akalankhula Abambo za ine, mayiyo analankhula "mwana wako wamkazi." Polankhula za m'bale - "mwana wathu wamwamuna." Kuti ndikulunga awiri ndi awiri, ndimadziwa momwe ndingapite zaka zisanu mpaka zisanu ndi chimodzi. Ngati ine ndine "Mwana wamkazi", ndipo m'bale ndi "mwana wamba", ndiye izi zikutanthauza kuti? Izi zikutanthauza kuti amayi anga siabadwa. Sitepe yomwe ndidayikiridwa. Ndipo sanafune kwenikweni. Ndinapeza gulu la chitsimikiziro cha izi m'mitundu yonse.
Zaka zisanu ndi zitatu zili ndi kulimbika mtima ndikumufunsa azakhali awo - mayi anga ali kuti, ali moyo? Azakhali (mlongo wachikulire wa amayiwo, omwe adamukulanda pambuyo pa makolo ake atamwalira mutu), mpongozi (bambo anga) atatha ... Ndidauzidwa Kuti ndikupanga zopanda pake zilizonse, palibe chomwe sichinanene, osadzudzula!
Nkhaniyo idakonzekeretsa lilinji